She feels that i am drifting away from her... She feels that i am isolating her... I can sense that she feels i am trying to move away fro her... but then i am not bah...

Too many things out in my mind... and i know i am those who cant give in to a person 100% truthfully and totally I am someone who try to treat everyone equally, other than giving her loved ones xtra. My time is in limited span. 24hrs a day, i tink its never enough for me lah..... and my xtra time not even to say. I can jolly well spend alot alot of time doin on 1 particular thing.. esp. in stuffs that i like... so dun blame me for takin my own sweet time...

I know she would want me to come out fro HQ today and mit her up, but apparently things dun work the way though. Partly, the cheque gt delayed, even till 5plus and at the same time, its such a sudden mit up... i rather to let the person knOw way before way... esp. when things are planned out.... and when i jz returned back fro BJ in less than 5 mins..... my legs didnt want to bring me back.. esp. when the person din tell me why... intention was to mit her at 5pm... but the sms at 3.40pm... was real disheartening...till i am jz lost for words.. and the reply back was like i break my promise or wat.. jz bcuz i din reply immediately at 3.40pm???.... and the fact is i am busy attendin somethin... away fro fone... and she din tell me she wasnt happy or wat lah.. dunoe lah..... but once i replied.. gt such a reply... i feel i am like wat.... i dunoe.... i've been tryin my ways, means and methods to get things goin.. but apparently the fire is burning too strong, till my extinguisher is not functioning... Useless now... i din know wat to do now... call fire engine or wat... leave the fire burning????? Ni nei nei........

I'm kinda disappointed in a way whereby i am being treated in a "coldly manner". The feeling isnt that fantastic, either is it marvellous. One of the main reason she knows it too.. once my school begin nxt wk, i have more things up on hand. Projects n Assignments... these are something that i nid to do.. and in perhaps rest too....... everyone around me says i am tired... and ask me to rest...even though i am ok.. once school begin, till nw i still cant comment anythin as school has yet to start lah... i have to try to do somethin....

I dunoe lah...... tis is lame and ridiculous in my dictionary..... i know i cant b there forever ah.... not that i dun wan to... bcuz i jz cant get myself................................ i am nt a bullet train..... i like to take things wols n steady....... Patience is one of the virtue to success and completion of task....