for the past 2 days, i am buzi wif an event...IVP 2005....one of the biggest two events of TKD....first day pattern...was doin chil jung together wif my darling pple...mark, wei juan, johnny n emily....erm....pattern was smooth..but i guess its e execution was that well..so end up...emm.....we get 4th again..si shi wo le.... then for first day, nptkd din fare quite well..most of them din realli get through...

as for second day, i am involved in sparring...which is fightin to common pple.. then first opponent fro ntu...named Audrey. both r us r abt the same ah....perhaps my luck is slightly better....mind was relaxed...jz that i keep shift back....bad thing.... then managed to win her by 2 points.... after she got 2 fouls...oops... then 2nd opponent...before goin in to fight, i see her i scared liao..she is fro SP...a malay ger, dunoe wat time....see her i cry liao...haben fight also cry..zhen mei yong...cos she looked tall n body built n pro....then i too scared liao...guess everyone who saw me were shocked.....never expect one to cry upon entering.... then went in in a semi conscious mind...then kanna wacked two times on my head....sianx....then saw my coach, gladwin, a veri blur image...but i din tell anyone... then she keep injuring my injured parts...end up i lost ah... margin was big...n i was cryin again....once the match was over..went to shake opponent hands, coach hands....still crying.... haix...

then e rest of the members did well..esp. my dear....she got gold sia...so happi n great..... in total we got 1 gold, 2 silvers and many bronze...think got 6 to 8 in total...

after prize presentation..ntu was celebrating someone bd....n it happen to be the opponent of mine...the ntu ger....feel so bad....its her bd....n i won the match fro her...and sad thing is i saw her limping as well.....such a memorable bd present for her....hope she will b fine...audrey, if u happen to stumble into my blog, i'm sorri for the injury. hope u had realli enjoyed ur bd.....hope to see u soon in later time...jia you wor.....

then we went to makan n here i am back home..wif injury, pain n tiredness...nitex...

haix..hasnt been bloggin for long..here i am back... been training for ivp 2005 which will b held on cumin sat n sun at ntu...sad to say...i wasnt been able to join the sparring matches...sianx...cos my weight cat onli got 3 pple from 3 institutes..need at least 4 pple fro 3 institutes then can....then the weight category was closed..then wasnt able to fight..however i am still needed to take part in the pattern category...will b doin chil jung... hope it will turn up well..total there will b 5 teams in it..ntu, nus sp, tp or nyp and np.. np is the last team to perform..same like last yr..hopefully our fate will nt be the same as last yr..jia you bah..pple...

been down wif illness recently as well...flu, cough, sore throat, fever..basically all kinds of illness..and also hand swollen, leg swollen.....tinkin i need a good long rest after ivp...if nt i will collapse....

but no worry...i will b fine...bantam...here i cum..........

since tat sms on friday...n wif those irritating stuffs...i am realli in a veri confused state nw..a state which i dunoe hw to xplain.... perhaps its time for me to do a major change..a time for me to step out of the circle... a time for me to leave.... been doin projects...too buzi to blog..n too angry..sad... so din do anythin....

anyway...watever decision tat i made...if there is anyone who i had made sad of...i can onli say sorri..dun mean it..but hope u respect my decision...as it will b good... but after ivp.......

chinese new yr is on the 9th and 10th of feb, 2005..basically for the two days...i had realli enjoyed myself...partly buzi collectin ang bao....being nanny helpin pple feed babies...chattin wif relatives....

9th february...went to father fish farm....then rot there for a while..play wif the dogs at there...they r big....so dun pray pray wor...n got a new dog called Lucky... so cute..got chance i post the pic on... then left there abt 12 plus..went to grandma house... annually routine... go there jz stand there..pple give ang bao..cos too many relatives at there le.... then start visiting all my mother's side siblings.... haha..u never expect somethin...my mum in total got 11 siblings..add her is 12..we managed to visit 8 to 9 families for the first day... then came back home..super tired...

10th february..went father fish farm also..cos human need to eat..fish also need to eat..so daddy go there feed fishes...then went ah ma house...chat wif her..then go daddy frenz house..then cum home..did abit of gambling..win a little money...got luck tis yr for rat...then came home..cos mama side relatives all cum for dinner..then help out..eat remainin food...but nice ah... then rot at home.... n prepare for nxt day skool reopen....sianx...

todai mood equal nt veri ok...feel sad..disappointed...angry... sad for my econs results...disappointed for somethin..angry wif somethin...fro a sms msg fro a tkd senior... dun feel like talkin...jz dun understand some pple at sometimes...i din go training jz for once or twice...kanna said like hell...who cares it when i go... no point talkin le...no mood...

*no motivation* no determination* no willingness* = giving up

todai i am happi.... mornning was tidyin my room..got a new layout for my room... pretty happi wif it..jz unhappy wif my unpainted walls...mz wait for a yr plus to paint... erm..then went to west mall to find my mum....n also see my friend liyi....she was there hosting e tiger beer show...erm..then saw andy as well...erm..nt my class andy..is one of my 933 fren....erm...wish him happi new yr... n return he give me somethin...shhh...secret....then chat wif liyi..n give me so many blessin n wishes for cny... din talk much as she is still doing her show... nvm...gonna contact her wif sms n our gathering...yeah...

happi thing is tell yall a secret...i strike lottery..from help of chai sheng ye..tat day after my common test..went west mall to find my mum..tis chai sheng ye givin out ang bao...curiosity i go forward..he give one to me..got 4 digits in there.... then tis afternoon when i go find my mum..saw e ang bao..tell my mama..mayb i go buy e numbers.... then buy a little...n hehe... e number cum out at todai 4D....small amount win...but nt enough to cover my laptop fees....haha... but happi ah....first time....hehe...

tomolo goin market wif my mum..afternoon goin to chinatown n bugis....to help mama get somethings for CNy.....n evening go for family dinner.....then need to treat them...okok..gtg...buai...be- early cny...mood ON...

todai is e last paper of my common test..haix...e paper know me i dunoe e paper...mind jz went blank when i saw e paper...perhaps is i din have enough sleep n i am in abit pain...therefore....cannot tink n do.haix...no point sayin le....

after test, mit horigan for blaw project...sianx...dun understand his language...nvm.then go someone house...n finally go eat sakae buffet...pengz...end up grew fatter by 1 kg....hw to go ivp like tat...dunoe...abit dishearted here n there...

haix..havin a bad headache....pain sia....need a sleep/..tomolo goin to visit doc...n find my fren....okok..buai...

went for my fmgt paper todai..seem its e best among e other 2 that i take in e past few dazs..but i cant say tis is still e best..as i had made alot of careless mistake in my mcq....one of e biggest mistake is tickin the wrong alphabet...haix..suppose to tick C, which is long term for the permanent...i tink i tick too fast..n tick B...haix...such a careless mistake also can make..or mayb i copy it wrongly on my paper...dunoe ah..its ok... as for the structured qns...was abit wrong here n there..haix..dunoe ah....nw left 2 more papers...which r the hardest among 5....so hw to survive..... *vanish*

now left 3 papers le..todai end my hrm paper....erm..basically i am crappin in the paper...so to say..i dunoe whether is it correct anot...i jz crap it down.... haix..tis semester i dunoe wat to say of myself..i tink i had not done veri well...haix...either i slack too much...or i am nt concentratin enough..its time to stop all these le bah..now lookin out of window...its goin to rain.... rain rain..pls go away....kk...gone..buai...