haix...tis few dazs jz dun feel like blogging..wasnt veri ok...in terms of mood..mayb is work... stressed up at there...n hearts of people are revealed...haix...feel so half hearted.... anyway...jz been workin workin n workin....cumin mon is the demo...nt veri prepared but i will try my best...cos my left n right leg muscles are aching....dunoe can tahan till mon anot...

tomolo goin out to eat wif liyi jie jie and other 2 frens...its been long since i last seen her n chat with her..jz hope that i will talk more...n more eye contact....kk..nitex all..update again...

i might meet into some problem for ITP..in terms of the hours...haix....might need to call up the school n check with my manager..sianx...

wohoo..todai off day...so nice...can sleep late...wake up late...n do wat i like....watch la pi xiao xin in the morning...till early afternoon....then went back to skool to train for my next monday taekwondo performance... got my "shifu" to help me...erm...quite satisfied wif my performance..although veri tiring..will b doin lauchin, step in one step n jumping turning kick.. hope all things go well...
my workin schedule change again..haix...will b workin tomolo n sat...next wk..confirm mon n thurs off...i guess someone at my work place had been sacked..so got me to replace her temporary..so my workin schedule change...erm..cruel..mean...haix...

somethin to b proud about..despite i am veri tired for the whole day... i manage to clear my zero entry todai...n clinched 3 members, with two spendin more than 80 dollars...nt veri easy to do so..but lady luck was wif me... i got them..also sell one soap...haha...so wu liao to sell them... kk...i am veri tired le..go sleep le....buai...blog down..sianz....

i am realli veri tired..tired..tired....todai redo the whole layout till i nearly vomit blood...super duber alot...got to multi task...have to redo layout...watch out for customers....n help a lazy working mate of mine to do this do that...i wanted to shout at her so much...say y u cant cum out from the cashier area?? r u a dumbie..end up i run here n there...like a siao char boh.....
then do do do....happi n sad....cos got things to do....but tired tired tired....erm.w.anted to give steph a surprise..but hor..she nt at home..so left the present wif her mummy...hope she like it... got her a garfield...cos a garfield reminds me of edward..hope when her ed is not wif her, she will have something "similar" for her to tink of....
kk....pple..work hard, study hard...sleep early..nitey...

first day of work..i am almost late...woke up late...then arrive at 1150am..wah...when my work time start at 12pm....guess what i do...first thing to do..arrange 6 trays of rubber bands..tat equal more than 1000 rubber bands...pengz...then do customer service...haha..finally can sell the scented soap le...haha...dunoe y..then was jumpin for joy when i can sell it...
doom day arrive...manager need my help to do somethin...she need to redo the layout of the shop...ask me for opinion...then i assist her....then do do do...n still canot finish..it was 6pm..mz leave for taekwondo le...then tomolo mz resume to do the whole layout of the shop on my own...haha...i goin to die sooner or later....veri tired.....tomolo long day....

wohoo..tis is my new blog skin..nice anot pple???

i like it so much..look so cute n nice...n lovely....give me comments so i can edit n do abit here n there.....kk...take care ah...happi attachment..nitey...

haha..todai is sunday...it is supposed to be a sunday where i can relax, i can go out to play...but guess what...i reject to go work...n stay at home to tidy my room...haha...from my clothing to my bed n finally to my most headache, my study table where all my notes are...

haha..in btw the whole process, i saw my secondary skool item...flip through them n tink of the memorable period of them..nice..nice...

in conclusion...tidyin from 1.30pm to 9.30pm...tiring....kk..tomolo all start attachment le...everyone...happi workin...take good care...n cya soon...nitex...

a saturday which at first i was worried to look forward to...i was seeing a sad saturday..with complete silence.... supposed to go cycling with my galsy galsy....but need to attend to a serious "meeting", therefore had to forgone it...

haix..the serious meeting is to meet my baobei...e nite b4....i dunoe whether is it a quarrel or a sad moment or unmemmorable or a feeling that i am unable to describe... haix... went to meet him carryin a sad feeling..

but lucky all things go well n i quite enjoy e whole day....erm..he got me an organizer... haha...i dunoe hw to organize my events well?? erm...need to consider sia... haha....but quite like e thing.... though i was hopin tat he could read my mind n buy somethin else...

then at nite, went to one of my tkd mate 21st bd party...its somewhere near stephanie house..at bt panjang...erm...did alot of chat at there..n happen to see one of my secondary skool mates n outside fren...erm...get to know an ex- NP business student as well...some sort of a gathering at there...
onli thing the whole NPTKD club to paiseh is..the 21st ger call us to take photo..she was shouting...Ngee Ann Taekwondo Club....everyone turns their eyes n face on us..make us hide sia....as if we r the "black n white" company.... she got a key birthday cake...
then maxim kor kor drove me home...n i came home to watch la pi xiao xin vcd n i sleep b4 12am..i am tired le...

lookin at her bd reminds me that all our birthday are cuming...stephanie, zhao yuan, rena n mine and lastly sinyee...goin to be broke...n I AM TURNING 20...old le...haix... will i celebrate my 21st birthday next yr...wanted to..but scared no one turn up....haha....n i lazy to celebrate...anyone willin to help me??

hey hey...todai is fri...exam had ended....happi n sad...who knows...up to heaven n god to decide the answer to my exam...or perhaps is myself...i know myself.....i din realli work hard for this semester..i got no one to blame...but myself....

after my exam tat end at 11am...supposed to go out wif baobei, but got a call from minitoons requesting me to go work....haix...perhaps i am pretty anxious in working...or sad over some issue, i went to work....

reach IMM at 12pm..n begin working...sianx...n work tll 1030pm..haix..tiring..tiring...kanna made use n so on...made me so sad..i guess i goin to do countdown till end of december when i goin "severe ties" with them...cannot stand the management le...

back at home....on comp...saw somethin unhappy....haix....stone there for an hour to 2....b4 i go bath at 1am...haix....other than a word "sad"...i dunoe wat to say...

also dun feel like blogging, but i am here again to share my things....

feel like crying, simply jz no mood. allow me to apologise to anyone whom i had been quiet at today...simply jz dun feel like talking or doing anything after the AAA paper...veri disappointed in myself...first the paper was tricky enough..nxt i was veri careless...either i forget it is debit or credit or i cant balance the source and the use....haix....i cant forgive myself if i dun do well...

while returning home, i had a chat with her. at that moment, i realli wanted to cry out le. haix...y had things turn out this way. i went to sleep. dun wan to tink of anythin nor talk to anyone, including my baobei. real sorri, but i jz want to be myself todai or these few dazs.

attachment cuming, yet i still so sad...i want to get over it...meantime, i guess i know what am i looking for ?

*as the time goes by, ......*

Its been raining the whole day..making me so tired...didnt study the previous nite..cos my headache is killing me..tis morning woke up at 9 plus..but was veri tired...keep sleepin here n there..finally begin my study at 1.45pm...shucks...cos there were alot not covered for my study for my AAA....then got a mystery gift from someone..went to develop photos..haha...got discount..siao liao..then dunoe y...after yest mama touch my gums...todai my left gums veri painful...haix...killing me as well...okok..better go makan, watch tv n study le...buai...

Erm...now is 11.43am..i had jz returned from skool after taking my OM paper...what to say abt the paper? Can do the qns other than the location qn asking about the country...din really go n read the info...so cant blame much..accept the facts...didnt attempt to do Qn 1 on EOQ as i had forgotten on the 4 types of inventory...realli old le...memorise then forgotten... but overall, i can say i luv the paper....its was much more better than my marketing paper...jz hope the marks wun b affected too much..

pretty tired..had been lacking of sleep for the past few days.... was quite a good ger yest but not online..so no entry was written...but i was studyin in the morning b4 goin to find my friends n liyi jie jie at IMM to pass her her belated present...then rush home to study..it was pouring...raining cats n dogs...n conclude i am drenched...didnt manage to study after returning as i was sleepy..took a nap n went to makan outside with my whole family... came home n watch tv...my left eye can see ghosts.....nice show....then study for an hour b4 watchin my shu mu er ke...dunoe y..i simply luv the show..perhaps wanted to be like one of them inside..who is so courageous...

then begin redoin all the tutorial qns at 12am...n got to sleep at 2am..again...mind is drifting with things..cant manage to sleep...guess i realli fall asleep at 3am plus n awake at 5plus to 6am by my baobei..n off to skool...n nw here i am back...goin back to my sleep..next waking up hour is 5pm....I NEED SLEEP...anyway...peeps, how u find todai OM paper? hope u guys or gals do well n study hard for next paper...AAA.....left two more papers...jia you wor....

My fren send this to me...have a luff on it bah...on marketing...

What is Marketing? You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I am very rich. Marry me!" That's Direct Marketing

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says, He's very rich. Marry him." That's Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day you call and say, "Hi, I'm very rich. Marry me." That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and pour her a drink. You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it,offer her a ride, and then say, "By the way, I'm very rich "Will you marry me?" That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and se! e a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says, "You are very rich, I want to marry you." That's Brand Recognition.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I'm rich. Marry me" She gives you a nice hard slap on your face. That's Customer Feedback.

Headache, headache, headache, i woke up with a bad headache due to stupid act of last nite...

After sleepin for 4 hours in the afternoon, watchin tv in the nite, i begin my OM study in the midnite at 2am.....erm..begin writing notes for the formulas to memorise n i find out there are ALOT ALOT ALOT...terrible..hand is painful and stomach is hungry..but jz bear with it....
When i finish writing the notes, it is already 4am plus. Still pretty awake, continue to try doin the tutorials. FInish e first 3 tutorials in the end....sound pretty tired n the time is nt realli right cos its 5.35am and i haben sleep.....

went to sleep..found my mama sleepin on my bed..then got no choice, sleep at the mattress under my sis bed. drag it out, but the position is not comfortable...simply cant sleep at all..end up at 6 plus i am still AWAKE....dad came into my room at 6.45am to wake my sis up for exam...saw me sleeping below..he say my mum..say y no bed ah....then....here n there...being awake, i decide to change sleepin area..went to my mum room to sleep....

haix, at 7am..i was awaken by 1 lame sms...called neo restaurant, tellin me abt an offer....pengz..7am.... finally got my sleep n wake up at 12pm on exact...watch abit of liu xing hua yuan..n went to find my mum n develop some fotos..mummy fren wasnt present, so cant develop...cos its wasteful....save money...

then went shoppin at west mall with my sis...haha...guess wat...we went to buy alot of things meant for gers..gers u should know ....interior....cos the new shop jz opened....havin a storewide promotion..i tink its realli veri worthwhile...cos i save abt 20 bucks from the whole purchases....ladies, get it by latest sunday.... got a small gift for my baobei.....giving to him on friday....

then got a sms from my manager...a good thing or bad thing..u all help me decide....my attachment might start earlier...mayb on sat or sun instead of monday as there is shortage of manpower..then my workplace is fixed at IMM....no running of two areas le....

finish doin up all tutorials for OM, n i had decided not to attempt method analysis..cos i simply cant memorise all of them..TOO MANY STEPS....okok..i go makan le...take care all..rena, if u see this, relax n rest well...dun stress urself...stephanie, thanks for being there for u....baobei, i miss u......

This entry is specially dedicated to someone...u know who u r......

U found this blog or had came over to look at tis blog at yest. Is it a good sign or a bad sign? I got no idea.... Someone who had been so nice to me, someone who had been so concerned with me, yet am i realli bringing myself hard enough to treasure and cherish this person?

There are alot of things for me to let u know, but i dunoe how to bring myself to let u know. I dont like to say bad things to u, for the sake i will hurt u or break ur heart. I knew u r concerned over it, but at times i do feel uncomfortable over it.

Every time when i say u, i always ask myself the question? WHy am i always saying u? Why am i doing so? Is it a right thing to do so? And considering u r a guy, how would u feel? Will u always been hurt when i say all those things? All these questions had always been ondering in front of me...

Every relationship had always been a lovely one. I yield to have a romantic one. Even though u had not known what r my likes n dislikes, but i know u had been trying hard to do so. I can let u know...small little movements touches my heart easily. ...esp. looking at the sms that u sent to me last nite realli brightens up my nite...

I fear a day when there was silence and avoiding, n i also fear a day when u leave me quietly. These few days, i had been living silently. I knew what i had done is deeply wrong as i had left u out for e past few days, but hang on there....e peak exam period is getting over.... miss u....

Haix...alot of things to say..alot of things to say...marketing exam...horrible...terrible..sadness... onli got 1 word to comment...BAD....realli veri bad....so bad until i realli need a comforting shoulder for me to cry on...i had memorised all details the nite b4...yet when i saw the paper....oh dear...its terrible....mind just went blank for the first qn....i jz canont remember a single thing... realli wasted my 25 marks on the first qn..it was said to be my most confident, most favourite paper and most attemptable question...yet tis is what i had showed...its TERRIBLE!!

Mayb the real reason is lack of sleep...i had been sleeping at 4 to 5am each day...n i made myself to fall asleep at 1am last nite...but...when i close my eyes...all the marketing notes jz appear in front me.. simply cant sleep....haix..then got my bro to wake me up at 4.30am so that i can study abit...i dun remember finding myself sleeping....i ask him...So fast...in the end onli wake up at 6.15am to study...haix.....tis is terrible....

n the teacher in blk 56 #04-08 is a freezing room. I cant work in an air conditioned room...mind wont function esp. in the early morning..n with the stupid irritating teacher inside..it was even worse...he was making a lot of distraction....haix..........

dunoe what to say abt the paper...jz gonna ensure that i realli strive hard for the other papers.....
wish me good luck, ok?? i need ur support...

Hi...here i am back again...as usual a slacker for a day...nt realli been studying...
glad to say i had finished doin all the tutorials for AAA...ready for a pass, but not a good grade...haix...as for marketing...manage to scan through them todai..goin into full battle as well...for memorising purpose....OM n EC...dun talk about them...cos i haben realli touch them...haix....
morning finish study AAA...then do abit of EC...then on comp....gone case.....then play crazy taxi with my bro n guess what.....play too long n gone my hours....then went out with my bro to buy dinner n go popular to store up my stationery. erm.....spend abt 10 bucks in total....a great amount....wonder y my pens die so fast...
cum home watch tv......then saw np pple on channel 8....erm....all fro BA...haix....but nt veri good looking but they r presentable.....then talk to my bao bei for a nearly an hour....haix...then parents came home...got mama to help me to dye my hair...to peary blosoom......very disappointing....i dun tink the color works...i dunoe...tomolo my class pple shall see for me.....
then watch tian chai go go go...n baobei call in btw the nite n i said him...cos it was nearly to 1am...n he say he mislook the time....pengz....cos sad to say i realli dun like pple to call my house...esp. after 11pm.....so i was rather angry n dun realli want to talk to him....haix..everytime say him, i feel so bad.....dunoe ah......let see what i can repay back....then read or scan through marketing...aiyo...wat am i doing...next yr i goin to take tis specialisation...yet i am so slack..hw to go that module then???

went to sleep at 3 plus and shall begin my day NT SLACKING anymore..............

What have i been doing recently? i realli got no idea........study?? sleeping?? thinking?

morning wake up to watch 10am show...abit stupid n lame....esp. i onli had abt 5 hrs of sleep. then begin slight revision of ec.....erm..haix...dunoe wat to comment...then e moment i sit in front of my comp....u know..i hardly get up...so thats gone my afternoon with the comp...

went to have a nap in the evening n wake up at 7 plus to watch tv program...wanted to start study at 8pm..but who knows..,my tummy was playin a fool on me....had a diahorrea...dunoe hw to spell...then been visiting the toilet the whole hour....haix..finally when i begin my studyin..it was 11pm..i watch the tv program n study my AAA at the same time...while studyin, did a bit of quarrel with my sis..as she said she wants go slimming...like jean yip, expression...i scold her waste money...ask her save those money to pay her bills and also her skool fees...then she argue back..says its not my money...haix..dun want talk over it...

msg him to say i sleeping..but cant sleep so wake up to study....in the end manage to nearly finish studyin AAA...left one last chapter for tomolo..CASHFLOW....cos the time is already 5am...i better catch some sleep....while i msg him to say i am sleeping, i find out that he is also awake...-_-......so in conclusion....we bluff one another?? i dunoe....

and here is my tuesday...exams cumin on friday and i dunoe whether i am prepared anot......bless me...............

*even though i din get to see u nor talk to u, jz to let u know i am missing and worried over u. take good care.....*

There wasnt any training today...due to training at yest...erm..mood still pretty down..nt many pple know..been tryin my best to study..but things dun realli get into my mind...spend my morning memorising Lecutre 3 for OM...finally know abt process strategy...pretty happy over it...in the afternoon, mood wasnt there again...tinkin n thinkin.... becos i din let him know somethin....the thing was....

In the nite, i went out wif nptkd gang of pple. we went to funan to eat sakae sushi buffet...erm..wasnt a great eater after all...ate a little..so dun bring me to eat sushi or buffet next time...its nt worth while....had a great time....cos we get to chat n relax despite exams was jz round the corner....then did another bad thing..went to esplanade with all of them...by rite suppose to go home to study....then end up home late..abt 11plus....erm..at esplanade we were being scolded by the security guards for sitting at the railings...we onli want to take a pic....argh..no bother talkin abt them....

In the nite, i was tinkin...by nt telling him tis event, am i doing the right thing....i onli know i still need a bit of freedom even though i am in a relationship. I dun like to report to anyone of where i go and had any form of restriction. * A free bird after all*. Do luv him, but i do feel he is holding him quite tightly. True to say i dun like pple to send me to my block or so....but he insist....dun realli like it...u know..........haix...i been thinkin n thinkin.....

Todai..sunday is grading day...haix...wat can i say about todai? yest havin full day cramps...then todai pretty weak..nt veri confident in todai grading...then for my pattern...need to redo one more time, together wif my gf, wei juan...then erm.....dunoe hw we fare..my shifu says he is happy wif our results as we managed to let the examiner gua nu xiang kan. Whether i can get a double or a pass, it doesnt matter much to me as it has already been a great achievement to me. But indeed hearin abit sayin the examiner is reluctant in givin the grades and also it should b a pass, i am indeed veri sad....as i knew i had cum so far, i should be achieving the maximum of what i can can. Setbacks are never good and fun...but it may pull one up. i Luv myself for being a strong, brave and courageous girl, but i hate myself for being emotional and undecisive.

Hadnt been studyin...been feelin unwell.....haix......hw would i fare in the cumin exam...........i am realli super duber anxious..tomolo nptkd pple jio me go eat sushi....haha..should i go..i realli wonder....most prob...had missed goin to eat wif them.....

ZThanks for always being there for me when i need u and being so patient wif u. Even if u r nt able to see tis blog, but i know u r always there for me. Luv u...........nitey....

A friday yet it seem so bored to me. In the morning wake up late...then study for 3 hours of EC...still not completed....mayb write too slow n my poor injured wrist. then went to bank, went mum shop n finally to skool to hear a stupid lame talk. Saw my liaison officer for my attachment. What can i say about her? An old lady who dun own a hp, soft-spoken, abit naggy yet very concerned about us. I am supposed to give her my working schedule and i was told to work in two outlets, IMM n LOT 1....haix...working days still not confirmed and working hours still stick at 11am to 1030pm. THat's super duber long. but i like the pay. Why do i choose to outsource in the first place? Haix.....now..what to do..look forward the 6wks r gone.
After the workshop, went to makan with baobei...erm...knowing both of us got alot of hidden words in our hearts, yet we never say it out to one another. erm....will gonna miss him alot..as due to exams...haix...am i doing the right thing? anyone who see it, pls give me a reply......

*Ai ni bu xu yao ren he li you, dan bu gao shu ni wo xiang ni ye bu shi wo bu xiang ni, er shi wo zhen de zhen de heng xiang ni*

Todai is a veri bored n sianx day....watchin tv, do notes....but dunoe understand anot...then been missin n tinkin of someone. too bad this person might not know all abt it...bcos i dun wan to let him know. wonder hw has he been todai? always been wanting to see a msg from him in my hp, but he is not able to read my mind. realli wonder hw is he?? haix....went to cck in the afternoon to check abt the attachment. haix...so many rules...make me so sad....nw also dunoe i am in full time or part time. kinda worried.

ok........mz go study le..or else exam sure die........i miss u...

It's been long since i came online to write a diary le. Here i am back to write an entry...erm...been buzi doin my projects recently. finally clear it on last monday...but now i am working on my coming exams. my first paper starts on nxt friday while my last paper is on 22nd oct....after which 25th will be my start of my attachment till 4th december. attachment will b at minitoons. working hour is 11am to 1030pm...siao liao...then 5 working days..dunoe can go training anot..haix...
by the way, some news to be updated online. currently attached again...veri happy....cos had found someone whom i love n treasure him alot.he is from my class....he is very patient and caring. hehe.....also...din relali perform as well as my semester performance. haix...hope all things go well.....kk..back to study le..buai...