erm...here i am back..yest cant blog...erm..yest sat for my blaw paper....erm....finally there is a paper which i can do...but i still wun say it is veri good as there r certain things that i left out without studying..shucks..think i lose all my guessin skills le...sianz...then decide to go library to study..din study quite long as the person in front of me was so irritating..press calculator also press until so hard...end up....i keep hear all tis dock dock dock sound..then got headache..then went home early to rest....cum home din realli get to study..cos the headache wun subside....so haix...onli study for a while in the late nite...n i realli mean late....which is after 10pm..... haix...morning wake up...doze off...cos headahce still there..hrm paper...nothin to comment..as wat steph says it will be a disgrace if we fail hrm....haix...wat to do....i realli dunoe hw to do the paper.... sianx...study de all din cum out....din realli study de all got cum out.....haix.... dun wan say le...later goin to pia last paper le.....CMA....dunoe will be CMI mah... bless me, ok??

todai sat for my second paper...ief..killer paper...haix..no bcos i don talk means that i know e paper...nt bcos i din go out wif yall mean i am ok...jz wanted some private moments alone...i can jz say i am veri sad veri sad...veri veri veri de sad....zhen de heng shang xin.....wat am i doin..i dunoe...the paper is tough mah? i dunoe...from the way, steph say....she realli gonna score well..and so is rena....sinyee...din talk to her..i dunoe....i feel like slapping myself...its nt that i dunoe hw to do the paper...is like my mind jz went blank when i see the qn paper...equal wat ms wong says..the shock that u will get upon seeing the paper... seeing the qns...i realli flopped..including things tat i have studied and known.... i dun wan to see these...............zhen de heng tao ren yan.................. tis semester is the worst semester results that i will ever get.... n lookin at current situation..it wun be easy to see a grade A for any of my core module.....wo heng xiang fang qi le................

while goin exams saw my left hand....minz.....erm...she looks so blur...guess need to have a good talk wif her on tis fri when we meet.... anyway fri to sun been booked le...fri after paper mit minz for lunch n dinner....then fri nite booked by vikki on fone at 9pm...then sat n sun....definitely a date wif 3 darlings... and mayb a day to go HIGH.......dunoe...plan all my holidays out le......hopefully i can keep to it...

yo yo yox....1 wk had passed...erm...buzi wif? exams? yah...erm..dunoe...tink i jz dun have the mood to study for exam...been slacking all the way...haix....realli dunoe wat am i up to for tis semester...haix....jz cant find any mood to study..e moment i start taking out my books, i jz feel like putting it away n go to sleep....n looking at current situation i tink that i am nt goin to do veri well for the cuming exams....haix...but i jz cant find the motivation to study...sianx..... i been askin myself to wake up....but but....it jz dun work....

haix....save me ................................

yox yox...here is e one n only pic wif him..its a group foto actually..but but...u know u know..happi looking..


(Leehom n Me)


(this is the actual pic ah...oops..)

It's really nice to be chosen and have a foto shot wif me...ahhh...gettin more n more vain...cannot le....better do somethin to myself....hehe....

yeah...i am back...back from my leehom tour....hehe...so happi....that i realli want to share these wif everyone in here.... morning study for a while..then go bathe...get ready to go IMM to see leehom....other than the autograph session, a few dazs i received an sms saying that i had won the contest where i am allowed to take a group foto wif leehom...a group foto..so nothin much when i hear le...

reachin IMM abt 1.30pm..supposed to report to them btw 1.45pm to 2.15pm...so went to minitoons for a while to visit old collegues...erm..they r fine...onli hear some news... bleh...saw e area manager...andrew at there...so weird..everytime go back minitoons i saw him...

time for reporting...went there..waited for some time..then someone took our names... then she went off for a while b4 cumin back to take us to a private room at level 5...it is the management room... ooh...inside stood leehom...so shuai n nice lookin...

total there are 13 pple being selected...by right 15...2 din turn up..then we were split into 2 groups...6 n 7...i am in the 6 pple group.... 2nd group to have foto taking wif him..veri gentleman, shake hands wif us wif before the foto taking... happen tat i am the first to enter the room...was allowed to stand beside him for the foto taking....soooo nice of it...realli.... then after foto taking, he still smile to us..before he goes back to return to his vocal practices..ah ahh ahhh ahhhh ahhhhh!!!..... we went down, collect our cd singles...then given another priviledge to join the 150 pple in the queue to get e albums been signed... woohoo...by rite we werent supposed to..but thank you i-weekly lady..n sony pple..u peeps r so darling kind.... we got a free poster...by rite onli e 150 pple get it... when i went on stage to get the cd signed, he looked at me awkwardly...nt my dressing...mayb its e second time i am seeing him...

then went to search for my frenzs....showed them...n i accompany my fren again in the queue...haha..tis is the 3rd time i am seeing him face to face...n while waiting..my fren was the dj...u know u know...ly....shh.... she saw us...waved n used the mic n say..."ohh, i saw my fren"...then a few moments later, she used the mic and say " weishi, where r u huh? ni zai na li?" then used my given poster n signal to her...abit paiseh...as pple around us turned to look at me n my fren.... =_=....

then autograph session ended nicely....both leehom n ly r tired....see them perspiring like mad.... then went off wif ly and frenz...chat in the cab...then went for dinner at suntec....then back home to share tis thing wif yall....hope to see the pic from the i-weekly soon...they will be emailing me the pic taken wif leehom....

*awaiting for the pic*........

abt a week never blog le....nt reali veri buzi...jz dunoe hw to blog to blog or wat to blog...basically other than slackin, study, watch tv, go to skool....my house is noisy like mad...all the renovation at my block is killing me....

also past few dazs is abit sad over some events...abit stupid...then also friday was the emcee for the ivp reception...nt veri successful indeed....due to the stage...dunoe who to face n hw to face...nvm....but enjoy myself....cos said some words wrongly....eat alot of screws.... touch rugby i pronounce it as tough rugby...

then received a good news on fri....sun i will be goin to imm to see leehom..other than tat, happen to win the contest in i-weekly...where i get to take a pic wif leehom n win a cd singles....good news as i won, bad news as it is a group foto...dunoe got chance to stand beside him...haha...jz dreamin away...

sun goin to see him...my revision is like rubbish...all haf haf...no memorization...n my head is killin me...havin terrible headache for the past week....

these two nites so along...including when i am typing this entry now...both my parents r out...bro out..sis out..onli left me alone in the house..feel so bored n sianz..n retarded.... mood abit down but abit high also...

sis kanna ocbc bank at raffles there for her attachment..under hr dept...then funni thing is under ms wong..my ief tutor...i see le i luff till pengz.... later she thought she see twins sis...hehe....

force myself to study...but at times still glued to my radio n tv... still remember on friday while studyin...call into 933...good news n sad news..managed to call in..talk to pei fen...but..dunoe y haf way b4 put on air....the phone line cut...screen said...insert sim card...pretty sad over it..nvm...

nxt sun goin for leehom autograph session wif my fren...n its jz like a few dazs later is exam..but its my date wif him once a yr...n he always cum when i got exams.... 3 yrs all like tat le..so used to goin to see him when i got exams....
after e autograph session, will b goin to a korean restaurant wif some fren...shh... secret...cant reveal who...hehe.... but it gonna be another memorable time...

*looks forwards to see u.........u know.......*

Tong Hua
Michael Wong (Wang Guang Liang)

wang le you duo jiu
zai mei ting dao ni
dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi
wo xiang le hen jiu
wo kai shi huang le
shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le she me

#
ni ku zhe dui wo shuo
tong hua li dou shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le

*
wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Repeat # and *

wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

wo hui bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

yi qi xie wo men de jie ju

todai nothin much to blog other than see an RA show in skool...meant nt to be.... cos its an IS module...intercultural communication...then so stupid..wasted to go in....go there jz see my test grade...B+, then wait n wait n wait..thought can see test paper...end up see wat show....then so "she"..bu suo le....

then go snack bar n study for two hours bah...then saw ms leong...then guess wat she told me...ask me be the MC for the tea reception for ivp....first time...hope things go well...lol...

then training xiong..super xiong..but i like it..gladwin takes us...wohoo..first time after ivp we had such shiok trainin..then ask us vote for nxt yr comm...erm...cant reveal who i vote...but i believe they can...

yah..tats abt all..veri tired...kk..nitey

dearest diary,

i dun feel good recently...seriously i dun feel good.. each day going to school equal a day of torture...each day returning back home equal sadness. I cant take it anymore, seriously. Been goin to skool carryin a fake face, goin here n there, smiling..tryin to make pple smile n luff....but that isnt the true self of me..i seriously want to cry it out... but i had to be strong...i had to hold n fight back my tears.... everyone is pressing me so hard...so hard till i cant breathe...

i am sorri to say e next few things..but i realli need to let someone know... currently i am tryin to stay far away fro two people..both r gers actually n i am rather or veri close to them..but i am avoiding them...cos the amount of pressure that they r giving me is killing me....both r rushin so hard....everyday been sayin the same thing to me all over again.....wo zhen de zhen de heng pa...ni zhi dao ma...wo shi ren..ni shi ren..dan shi wo shi yi ge bu tong de ren...wo bei ni men ya de heng jing....ni men ran wo jue de ni heng pa ren, rang wo que de wo bi qu yuan li ni, bi qu bu yao geng ni men suo hua...sui ran ni men ren shi wo bu shi yi duan heng chang de shi jian, bu liao jie wo, wo bu guai ni men....dan wo hai pa de shi wo, wo shen qi de shi hou, wo hui shi gu du de, wo hui xuan zhe bu geng ni men suo hua...ni men ye qian wan bu yao lai geng wo suo hua...ying wei...wo bu yao fa pi qi. zai wo suo you de peng you dang zhong wo chong lai mei you zai ren he ren de lian suo guo, ma guo da...suo yi ni re huo le wo....ni sui hao shi xiao shi....wo xiang ku...wo zhen de xiang ku........

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dunoe wat to blog...jz walked past here....sianz....i am nt to myself!!!

been fightin back todai...tears, sadness and basically everythin... first thing cum to skool i had been so sad been....been said, dun wan comment anymore...e more i say e more sad i am.... i can onli say i am the unlucky ger out of the whole...

in class todai, while havin lesson, i wrote a poem or self-composed song of friendship. The words are hurting and sad. But that is how i feel at that point of time. Pple who know me well will know when i am sad or angry, i will be veri quiet for the entire day. but haix...dun wan comment liao....

basically todai i am in no mood to talk to anyone...no matter is outsiders, my friends or even my buddies, i jz feel like being alone..... somewhere or somehw i jz feel home is better than anyone...

last but nt least, i had cum out wif a final conclusion. tis nt goin to be released to anyone other than myself. take care folks! i will b bloggin but not chatting...

*Life is filled with ups and downs..happiness and sadness*

sometimes is not that i want to say tis person....but its he is doin tis that pest me n irritate me...nt jz me alone....tinkin tomolo is the tutorial..an early tutorial at 9am...yet u tell us wat r the qns to do at 9pm plus in the previous nite...do u expect us to stay up late jz as u are to do the qns....or do u expect us to cum early to skool tomolo to do..... n each time our group kanna those veri long qns to do...n got so many qns to do...its realli irritating loh..realli cannot stand it.... anyway tis is the end of the semester....n everythin is cumin to an end...i realli wish tis thing to be OVER....n I MEAN REALLI OVER....realli hate to have this thing goin on n on over the week....

anyway todai, wasnt feeling veri well....yet got pissed off by tis kind of person..had been havin cramps the whole day...n went to sit for my BE test....took abt 15 min to complete the whole paper...first time i finish a test paper in such a short time..cos tummy reaallli veri pain le...sianz..then din manage to train due to the pain....haix....wat to say....i realli got no idea...

now i know y yest my specs will fly..the currents is strong... jz now i read the newspaper and saw phuket had a "mini-tsunami"... had strong currents and a ship was gone...and 10 lives were killed in the disaster...time of accident was around 4pm..it was also around the time when we are at the beach.. haix...anyway i had gone to make my specs le...$188...such a lucky number rite....then still got 1 yr warranty... haha...

todai at home cos raining....then nvm.... watchin tv..still slacking...then went out wif parents for dinner..later read up biz etiquette test....

erm..........jz hsappen to enter...so cum here for an entry....later goin kayakin at east coast...pray no rain hor... when things are beginning to diminish, one start to treasure...this kind of feeling is miserable...especially for one to treasure all our relationship...

everyone been reminding me that tis is the 4th semester of the yr...cuming to an end where class TB02 will be separated into different specialization. Feeling is sad..thinking when we cum together during the 1st semester not knowing one another till now we are going to part soon.... n to my beloved group...stephanie, zhao yuan, rena and sinyee...realli thank all of u....for taking care of me.. hear my worries...my nagging....

okok...sound that i am getting more n more naggy liao...kk..shall end here... realli look forward to later kayaking wif them....n also our upcomin class chalet on april 4th or 5th...forgotten...kk...take care peepz....love ya....

here i am back home....after my kayaking.....did i kayak??? i realli wonder.... let me tell u wat happen...

todai went to east coast park to kayak....erm..pretty looking forward to it...reach there liao...saw e strong currents..pretty worried over it ah..but we go ahead to kayak...tried goin into the sea alot of times....but unsuccessfully...... then guess wat....5mins haben step into the sea....the strong current continues...... then one strong current cum.....b4 i could tink of anythin...i am pinned under my kayak.....cos the strong current flipped my kayak..... lucky i managed to get back my life.. jz that...my specs r gone..think the strong current pulled my specs out of my face....

u know e moment of such thing happen..i thought a tsunami had occurred.....thought of losing my life n nt able to return.....but thanks god,thanks myself...i am still safe n sound....

then e rest of the day....i am a blind ger..nt wearin my specs n moving around..... went to have pasta near there...a nice environment...then head home..long journey...tired..tanned....but enjoyed myself alot....

*i promise to luv myself more*

the time now is 1.40am, march 4th, early morning. here i am still online..waitin for my comp to b functioning well.....erm...kinda hasnt been updating my blog oftenly...dunoe is nothin to write or no mood to write..or jz simply too buzi to write... recently not much things happen..other than some small little things occuring here n there...din train despite got go traniing...mind seem to b sayin...dun go for national tournament...mz jia you for studies...dun slack....n also b happi n nt too nervous... recently been tryin to calm myself down..as the surrounding of me isnt tat well...friends wasnt happi, i wasnt happi....friends in trouble...i help them to tink of solutions.... me in need...here i am.....

relax as u go...n u will climb high, weishi....