Nothing happening had been going on for the past two days. Things appeared normal to me, i guess. Had been trying to find things to do, especially in improving myself. But humans are born lazy or just wanna relax down. SO tada....... u know u know....

Its so hard to teach class with an injured finger. One, you cant clap your hands. Two, you cant bend your injured finger. Three, you have to pretend that you look ok. Hell, basically.

Who could be as clumiest as me??? Tinking that she decides to cook a meal when she woke up at 9.30pm for dinner.. and she sliced her finger while she opened a can of soup?? Seeing the blood oozing out from the ring finger.. seeing the blood splattering out and forming marks on the surrounding pots and pans.... seeing the blood refusing to stop... woohoo..... this ger muz be mad in the mind.... And this person is ME............................. 

Contradicting members.... Using the same piece of music for KB, last time they comment that the music is too techno... and today she says the music is OK... and when i told her its d same piece, she is dumbfounded and shut her mouth up... SO weird right!!! 

THis is the 1st time i am teachin so many classes within a same day.... Non-stop 4hrs of lecture cum aerobics classes with the P3 students from Northland Primary school... some of them were real nice and sweet..showering me with words... while some of them could be rather nasty though.... ahem.. shall nt mention which particular group... But overall i had fun...

1st time teachin the stupid seated/ chair aerobics... hope its the last also..... ended up runnin up n down.. stomping my feet.. talkin.. and so on..phew... quite cool..... was lookin forward to my lunch at 1pm.. but end up i dunoe wat happen... i saw the queue was too long... so i went up to PM studio and forget to go down again.. Diaoz...

Continued on with the marathon though.... end up attending HIS class.... as usual 2 of them... not bad in general... jz tat... someone forget his moves.. lost in his counts... his words.. and cues... oops... who huh... u know i know....

Off to bugis.. for wat... dinner for this poor hungry soul..... Great dinner chat..... hahA... dunoe wat we talk also...... btw, i guess i am losing my bet of my song mix... haHA.. tats gone my 10bucks... wahHAH... but nvm... take it as a form of donation to this charity foundation... wahHA...

Lastly, ended up in east point... 2nd final stop.... by then i am also on the verge... routine wasnt in my mind... was swingin and swayin..... so did watever i can.. class size was small jz nw.. dunoe why... nt bad in general... at least everyone is enjoyin... yeah... jz wanted to chop chop end... same apply for LO class..... thankfully they r newcomers.... so did alot of repetitions as my mind really cant tink by then.....

And finally i am back home at 1145pm...... rest rest rest...
Will i ache tml?
Will i be in pain?
ahAHHA.. i gt no idea... pray hard ya....lalalazz

I believe everyone ought to have their own carefree time.. juz by walkin around Singapore. It might be an aimless walk, but yet it could be a fruitful walk too...
Done with the corporate kids class in HPB, almost ended up vomitting teachin them.. bcuz they are around the age of 14-15.... so seein my face becomin so rebellious..... and giggle.. talk.. luff and so on... cant be bothered also.....

Didnt want to go home.. so begin to hang out on my own..... went to catch a movie alone once again.. watched chocolate and Made of Honour.... not bad for both lah.... jz wanna kill them.... and decide to take a breeze walk... so plugged on my earpiece... and blasting loud the music and started walkin from PS to cityhall and finally to Marina Square.... in btw, i did my shopping.. and tada..... bought some fitness apparel.... guess wat.. i am runnin out of the house of blackie-ness... bought a grey top the other day.. and today i bought a light blue full length top.. also bought 2 bra-top and a pair of black pants too...... burnt the hole... gotta stop all these nonsense.....

And finally i landed in PM.. my 2nd home...... finally he is back.. and members were glad to see him too.. classes back to normal..... and guess everyone had a great workout..... we were too busy luffin at one another...... till we really want to shout... wahHAA...

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It seems to get better in some way or another..... the amount of appreciation.. thankfulness... watever lah... we finally landed back home after a long day...... tml gonna be another long day... 8hrs of class.... hope i can endure...

9-1pm HPB kids aerobics cum lecture
3.30pm KS
4.30pm KB
7.30pm KB
8.30pm LO

ENDURE ON!!!!!!!!! LONG MARATHON!!!!!

For once, i ponder the re-discovery of one'self... Rediscover the strength, rediscover the weakness, rediscover the abilities and capabilities...

I saw myself up dere..... shining...... sparkling... glowing....
The smile, the applause, the encouragement... thank you....

Almost everyone around me is falling sick, including myself. This isnt a good sign though.
Feeling feverish since thurs and hanging on till now..
But then, we still have to get our classes and performances goin on
A strong front indeed.... with the shivering coldness and trembling feet of ours...

Yest sunday was the performance. Urm, we begin the rehearsal since a month plus back... as usual the fun n laughter. Had my earlier class in thomson. Dragged myself dere. Some regulars were nt present, but thankfully Nancy was dere to brighten up my day. Thank yoU! Did the usual stuffs and tried out the new remix. Cool! But nid some fine tuning, i guess...

Dragged myself over to JP... nice stage or better in style.. did the rehearsal in the studio of JP first.. urm... everyone looked like a stone. Kinda off in form... Feeling weak.. Cough cough cough... Haix... Anyway yeah, we did the performance. Cool!! No fumble or error. All went smoothly. And tada.... it ended well....

But then my hands were trembling and shivering for abt 10mins after the entire performance. Legs wobbly too. Still in the feverish mode and went to mit ben, qy and ben's gf.... nice chat with the whole sotong clan... We were damn blur... really blur!!!

Still cant go home.. nid to replace class upstairs in JP.. KB followed by ABT... the class... i am kinda disappointed lah.. Its like everytime i go and replace.. they are mostly new pple... the usual pple are not dere.. how to improve from dere like tat.... while teachin.. i saw 2 pple from outside.. Charmaine with a member lookin in.. and another one peeping from the back of the class.... but i cant b bothered.. jz wanted to chop chop finish and go home and rest.....

It doesnt feel good to be sick though..... bad feeling.. and upcumin wk.. i am teachin everyday... from mon to sun!!!

Mon KB
Tue CB
Wed Kids Aerobics
Thurs Kids Aerobics, KB, LO
Fri NB, Hilo
Sat Hilo, ABT, 320T
Sun Hilo

Hang on dere....................................= )

Today is like the 7th day since i begin working on the new remix, yet there are still flaws. SO CRAPPY! Removing bridges, adding bridges, too noisy, no beats, length of song too short, entrance, exit.... SO MANY THINGS NID TO AMEND!!! CRAP MAN!! Wanna give up, but a promise had been made.... *argh*----->>>> ALL THANKS to me for wanting to use all those songs which i like and able to follow.....

Anyway.. i tink i am so bored that i end up rotting at home. Just dont feel like doing anythin.... Change abit of my newbody for today's class. Great response from the members despite crowd is the usual 10+. In fact, i had forgotten what i had taught juz nw. Dont ask me... Oh yah.. it seems that i had jz adopted a new grandson. He is Rita's son. A mix of Indian and Hong Kong. He is cool and handsome. Also, it seems apparently that he only likes to talk and entertain me. While the rest, he din really bother... Haha..... and he actually waits at the door while i am teachin class. Almost wanted to enter the class.. Phew....

Btw, i had fallen sick in some way or another. Caught a flu bug before goin to amore. End up havin abit of difficulty while conducting class. Also, i'm feeling abit feverish too.... demo comin.. classes here n dere.. and everyone is either sick or on leave... cant afford to do anythin...

Its the beginning of my holiday, but why arent i happy?? Cant seem to think of any reason, but then i feel isolated with no feelings... i jz want to be to myself ALONE....

*hidin in a corner*
*starin into the ceiling*
*wantin my own space*

It was a great class. Thanks for the last min opportunity... Everything went as planned or even faster....

My back still hurt... haix...

* i feel like goin drinkin on my own.... BUT BUT...........................*

How are u???

Do you always have feelings that are hidden in ur heart, yet it is never revealed in the public?
Do you ever try to hide ur feelings away from the people whom you dont know and u know?
Do you ever try nt to explain urself and let the others to find out on their own?


SOmetimes, feelings are meant to not to be disclosed.
At times, it would be best for u to keep silent and not to reveal.
Keeping all these feelings as secrets is neither an exposure of ur identity and invading ur privacy.
Its jz a form of secure-ness to urself and ur friends.

I like the feeling whereby both of us are sitting side by side.
Even without uttering a single word
I feel the sense of secure-ness and comfort btw us

For i knew u r dere for me
For i knew i can trust you
For i knew we hold the sense of comfort btw us

Thank you for the friendship that we hold btw one another
Thank you for all the trust
Thank you Thank you and jz Thank you!!!

A sentimental and emotional nite entry jz for every single of my friends...

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School vacation jz begun.. and i had been slackin... really slackin loh.... watchin videos.. dramas.. almost every thing that i can do.. before my busy life begins.......
Tryin to find activities... but then.... jz refuse in some way

Ended up in thomson early than expected... jz bcuz i had nothin else to do
Wasnt in the correct mode to conduct my classes.... but i dunoe why....
Perhaps there are things out in my mind that are uncleared...
CB.... much better than yest... and fun fun fun!!! Haha.. ended up luffin and smiling.. bcuz someone from WL is dere... and i end up talkin and bitchin abt the wl class...

And she knows abt the situation d other day..... And looks like candy music suits them better... cuz they r "A......". Think i better go find the song... "I luv Candy"....... and play during cool down for them loh... whahAH..... Anyway for kb...... lol.. played a joke on them... cuz they r nt shoutin.. whole hour only hear my voice.. i ask them is my mic spoilt or they shout till too loud till my ears cant hear them.. ended up they were luffin at me... But i like one of the sentences that i use...
"Transfer all ur voices into ur extra energy and push urself on!!".....

And tada... fun session bah.. esp. for the two newcumers... hope to see them again in two wks time..... nxt wk is vesak day.. i replacin class in PM 3.30pm........ anyway.. watched finished 15 episode of hua yang shao nan shao nu within 2 days...... woohoooooooooooo!!! Cumin up next is "it started off with a kiss 2"................................

Busy busy busy.... had yet to memorize the routine for kb demo for upcumin sun.. shucks....
tis wk... will be teachin kb for ALOT OF DAYS..... I MUZ BE MAD!!! Protect my voice.....\

Gd Nite.. 2am.. off to zzzzzzzzzzzz.... ciao~~~ Gotta decide what to do tml.....

lalalalal...........

pulled my lats muscles...

wake up in pain til nw...

perhaps need to visit doc............


haix...............................

I was reading one of my friend's blog and i came across this... found this very true... so decide to share with u...

原来人真的会变只是所需的时间是长还是短而已
曾经对某些事很执着随后也会淡然处之
曾经对某些物很重视随后也会搁置一旁
曾经对某些人很在乎随后也会形同陌路
珍惜当下因为 人 真的会变

In direct translation, it means that people does change, irregardless the time
In the past, you might be clinging onto some matter tightly, but as time goes, the tension is lesser
In the past, you might be very observant and conscious over some matter, but time goes, you will jz cast it aside
In the past, you might be very concerned over someone, but as time goes, this person might soon become a stranger to u
Treasure and cherish your peers as people do change...
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Didnt have a very gd day for the past two days.. i mean half of fri and whole of sat......

Started off goin to sentosa with feifei on fri morning... gt my tanning.. but still nt satisfied.. and down to thomson to mit des. for some serious matter... poor babe with her electronic products.. haix.... and then class... NB started off fine i guess... still doin wat is meant to be done... HILO... sorry... i refused to make any comment over here.... i gotta say i am disappointed over 1 particular issue that i cant mention.... no one knows other than me and another impt person from A.F..... i'm jz disappointed basically....

Cumin to sat.... nothin gets better lah.. in fact it worsen... i hate the crowd out dere... only the minority of u... a flock of birds with the stupid same feathers...... picky, choosy, demanding...complaining.. wat else are u all up to..... ni nei nei de........ talkin durin class.... say music too techno.. then change le say no bass.. then expect me to sing..... wassup loh...... try swappin position nxt time round bah...... but lucky the HILO perks me up.. had a fun time.. ended the last session with a YMCA....

Thomson... did the 320T.... guess i am jz very strict with them in somehow or another..... emphasize alot on techniques.... but apparently they were tryin to be responsive.. but still fail in some way or another... had a chat with a member..... then came home and try to be productive... but then things dun really turn out tat well...

BASICALLY my day is shit lah.... haix........................

* You are no longer who u used to be. Or perhaps i am no longer who i used to be. We have all changed, juz like what i mentioned in the main context *

Sometimes, some matters are best to be left unsaid or discussed.
"i jz think you dun have to show ur moral support by coming.... i do appreciate but wats the point when end up u r nt enjoying and expecting wat u should be getting... i have only 2 ears, 2 eyes and 1 mouth... i cant cater to everyone.. at most more towards those who nid them more from me.... CRAP!!!!!!!!!!"

Urm...... tiring day..... eyes r still so painful..... dunoe why... been sleepin enough but then... urm..... tats why gotta stay away fro my comp....

Anyway...... class was great in some way... spend my time luffin during kb... hahA.. all bcuz some dummy acts.......

He passed me a stack of feedback about me from members.... read through.. and got an evil grin..... yup... i tink i am a stone lah... emotionless... wun reveal all out... but deep in my heart... i know the answer..... thanks!

Anyway...... cumin 2 mths.. it gonna be real busy for me... saw my may schedule.... and upcumin june...... and alot of things more cumin up...... some r being given up and so on... i dunoe lah.....

Jiayou bah... i jz slashed 483 Singapore dollars onto a webbie....................... highest price i had ever paid in buyin things..... looks like the money given by the state is nt enough to cover back..... haha... so eatin bread time...

i am gettin fatter n fatter... and roadshow is cumin up........... *SAVE ME*!!!!

Been mugging since 10am till now...... tired... restin.. before my brains gt congested....

I thought u would have woken up
I thought u would have grown up
I thought u would b on ur feet
But i guess i am wrong
U are still standin at the same place, at the same spot...

Why could people be so selfish?
Why could people only think for themselves?
Why cant they put themselves in others' shoes?
Why are they so inconsiderate?

The vulnerability of people
The cruelty of people
The instinct of people
often makes the surrounding people up & down

Time is running up
I dunoe hw long we will last
I dunoe hw long will u'll be beside me
But i jz wanna tell u


........................ (to be continued).................................

These two weeks..... wun b changin my routine... till i guess sat in perhaps..... had been too busy muggin till i am settin my routine aside..... No inspiration and no motivation to tink of any new things..... or perhaps my mind is drifted away..... to all the upcumin exciting events in my calendar......

Feeling numb and dumb.......

Broke the news to them.....

They were happy to hear....

Guess i am happy too....

Tired Tired... but had to keep on goin...... another one more to go.. before i collapse and embark onto my whole list of activities lined-up for the wk.......

Xavier is so cute.... where's ur honda huh??? My small cousin is so cute.... and he's only 4 yrs old.. but super intelligent.....

And last but nt least, happy 83rd birthday to my grandma....= )

Why am i here when i am havin my exams tml? I dunoe... anyway, jz wanna drop by to tag.....

Yeah, so far so smooth i guess... but i am nt prepared for my thurs paper.... somehow jz not...

Classes...fri.. NB and HILO... guess i am enjoyin the classes so far... only phobia is the 8.30pm HILO when i am waitin for the members... sounds scary..... jz hope the nightmare does nt return.....

Sat.... the KB was a shiok one... managed to kill the members out dere...... and HILO.... woohoo.. they were as usual screamin and enjoyin themselves.... phew.....

Had been so lazy or busy till i cant get myself to tink of any routine.. nt even to accommodate to my darling members for my SUN morning 9.30am class..... it was only till i were in the cab to thomson on sunday.... when i begin to tink what am i goin to teach later...... and tada... only at 9.10am... i anyhow wack through a new block of routine.... erm... undescrible of the moves... should it be a hop, a fly or wat.... i also dunoe.... but then i am still enjoying myself and do the members.....

It was really a gd one... and seein the usual whole group... and now the happiest thing is.. the class is gettin more n more crowded with regulars......today gt 14 pple..to others this figure is small.. but to me, its quite a big sense of achievement esp. for the members in TS do not really like to do high impact classe... and and and most of them were enjoying...... yeah yeah..... hope to see them back again at next sun... bcuz only they were the ones who can brighten up the early sunday of mine........ i hate the feeling when i drag my feet to teach class.... but they never fail to disappoint me......

OK lah..... time to head back to my studies..... ciao.................

5 more days to the end of exams... and start of school holidays!!!!

Jiayou le beh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thankfully the sleep/nap in the afternoon did helped me abit.... by livening up my spirits..... collapsed onto my mum's bed.... and sleep till i refuse to wake up...... but no matter wat, i still have to pull myself for 1 reason.... HABEN SETTLED THE ROUTINE TO TEACH FOR KB AT 7.30PM... WHILE THE TIME IS OREADI 5PM.... so tada... i am awake lah......

Squeeze squeeze squeeze....and finally manage to get somethin out...... quite satisfied with it... in some way or another..... had been pondering over the qn....... so as i tink of the routine, i begin to tink of the qn...... but heck lah... at times u jz gotta follow ur heart.....

This wk session.... somehow i had begun to relax myself down by goin up on stage and doin what i can... or perhaps i am too focused on my kb routine... till i ended up luffin at my ownself..... dunoe lah.... but then everythin did went smoothly as planned... thats a sense of achievement for myself i guess..... and the smile from the members... there was one ger wearin in green jz standin dere n nt moving.... so apparently.. i cant do much lah... end up coverin over.... and she left....

Anyway, its over also lah..... i enjoyed.. and i hope they enjoyed too..... and lookin forward.............
Now next worry is upcoming sunday HILO...... crossin my fingers... haben tink of my routine.....