I AM not happy bcuz my buddy is nt happy... and bcuz i dunoe why she is not happy... makes me even not happier..... argh.. i hate tis kind of feeling..... frustration...


Was in hospital in whole afternoon.... my ah ma in there... for her chemo..... then rush to cheryl class... wasnt concentratin.. so everythin in a mess.... but happy to know i am gettin my 1st pay fro amore... i suppose....


Rushed back to mit mum and return back to hospital.... then had late dinner... and here i am..


Yah... hope my buddy back in gd shape... tats abt it... cya

Today no trainin at HQ... so sleep longer ah... despite i wanted to send an sms to 2 pple.. but drop the overall whole idea..... then went donald class.. finally... get to go despite i still prefer to be in HQ for training... class ok ah.... dunoe ah.. recently classes to me is like tat.. cuz concentratin on my form.....


Was talkin to the PTs just now.. and they told me they saw my disappoiinted face on sunday while performing.. esp. upon knowing that i forget the move, it was shown on my face...aww... tis is nt professional.. should work on it... bcuz a performer should never show such expression up on stage.....


Then jz like tat loh.. sorry tat i make you worry for me so much ah.... oops.. u also dun make me worry for u also lah..... so many things had happened... yah yah yah.....


Tats abt it.. nothin much to blog recently...

TOA PAYOH ROADSHOW
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We didnt have much rehearsal practices for this roadshow... perhaps for the reason all of us know the routine.. and no changes is required for any single part..... so yah.. juz this 1 or 1.5 rehearsal that i had during the 2 wks break....


1st day
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Went over to park mall for morning class..... the previous nite was so excited that i couldnt sleep.. jz bcuz i had nt been attending the sat. classes for a mth plus.. just misses the days bah.... So yah.. simply enjoyed it.. marvellous.... then prepare myself and head off t0 TPY with sasha.. i told her that goin there jz reminds me of tkd grading.....


Did the 1st one with des and sasha... in fact, its the best among all tat the 3 of us had done so far..... but jz missing out somethin....


Stayed on to look at the others perform till the end... ok lah.... its a gd day i suppose....




2nd day
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Bong wasnt feeling well when he came.. since yest... then we can see his serious expression... so its time of no joke and laughter with him... anyway doin the segment with him ah.... erm..... the demo with him.... sorry... its my fault... why could i had forgotten the routine when it is supposed to be a default move... but somehow my mind jz went blank for the 15 sec... and worst till... pass the germs to bong... pengz rite.... end up both of us stoned.. and shocked sasha.... but lucky i manage to get back in shape...... and ended the show nicely...


After the show.. still nid to play games with audience... oreadi sad.. but hold back ah... then after it... wanted to be alone.... told sasha... but sway sway... while tryin to siam everyone... i walked to interchange.. and i saw Bong... wth.... out of everyone.. he appeared n still asked me where am i goin.... only remembered i paused for 2 seconds.... and said i goin to walk walk.. but 10 steps later i cry while i walk.. bcuz i am damn sad.....


Msg him while sittin at the Courts area there... jz wanted to be alone...... thanks for the encouragement ah.... yah...


To everyone who shows their concern to me.. i am really grateful and thankful for being so understanding.. esp. to Sasha and Bong. I know u may nt be able to see this entry, but then i am thankful. Sorry for the major error that i had made. Thankful for being so understandin and not probing abt this issue. Thanks to Jenni mummy for encouraging me. Thanks to Feifei and Yong Cheng for cuming down. Thanks to Him for answerin to my windy sms-es. Thank you to All of u. I luv u guys....


Just before endin the entry.. i had somethin to add on... I am really thankful to one person... which is my instructor or my mentor, Bong. I guessed steppin into the instructor's line in this moment of time is not wrong. Other than with his training and guidance, I had really learnt alot. But what really touched me was the way he is helpin me and introducin me to other pple in the industry bah.... Just an instructor of mine, just a fren of mine, just my co-partner in demo performance, yet he was there to help me for AIC and teach me. And introducin me to Jas. as future instructor and other pple. E.g. jz nw we were talkin to one of the HQ staff... then talkin abt careers.. and this ger said " So u plan to be in fitness industry.. meaning fitness instructor ah?"... I hold for a while and this Bong ah... said.. yaloh.. future instructor leh.. cumin up soon.... in fact, this nt the 1st time bah... I can see he has alot of expectation fro me and he had confidence in me too... In fact, not only him bah... some other instructors also share the same feelings as him... and PTs too.... all say 100% can de..... i am glad to have everyone's support... really..... definitely i hope i can reach the mark too....


U gave me the confidence. U gave me the faith in myself. U increase the assurance btw us. U gave me the chance. U gave me the inspiration. I am honoured to be part of u. I am honoured to be selected. Be it a small failure, i am not easily affected by setbacks. In fact, it would make me stronger and tougher and prove to others. Tats me and i shall show it to all of u....
Sorry for the naggy posting..... Future AI, Jiayou!

Woohoo... i am back... had a long day today in fact....


Started off with a breakfast or brunch with my friend at outram..... hahA... good lah.... enjoyed the session... somehow i feel great chatting with him.. as he really understands me and share my worries..... then went off to bugis for NB training under Jet...


Erm. Claudia and Alicia were late.. got to wait for them....diao.... suppose to start at 1.30pm.. and i gt to rush off to PM for KB rehearsal at 2pm.. end up begin late.... but thankfully i manage to learn alittle here n there... phew...


Raining damn heavily... then lucky saw darling sasha.. shelter me over..... bong was late.. held up at office... end up use studio stage for a while to work on my routine..... nt bad..... rehearsal same ah... no comments... so its neither gd or bad for me bah.....


Classes so far had been enjoyable despite a little stressful. Cuz i know someone is checking out on me during classes. For movements, e.g. scoop, slide and etc. Its a good form of stress ah..... Now 2 guys are helpin me. I feel so thankful. Or in fact more than that. Everyone helpin here n there abit... nid to progress on ah.....


Glad to see a better look fro sasha... phew... but then she still looks tired.... hope she gets well ah.. really worried for this ger....

Supposingly to come back in a happy mode, i suppose. But then, since this afternoon, I had super mixed feelings. I feel the gap and the distance drift between me and her. I can sense it. And it seems that everything begins fro the roadshows. Since that particular trauma case, everythin seems to change.


I am very worried for her. I had alot of things to ask and tell her. But i dunoe hw to do so.... Esp. since this afternoon miting..... i had even more things to ask... but then its really hard to say.... haix....


Why why why? Pls tell me..... i maybe happy in 1 way... but if u r nt happy.. i dun see the reason why i must be happy......

Woohoo.. my internet is officially back..... finally i can go on msn and chat with all my loved ones.... esp. after 2 mths..... finally...... urm....


TUE
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Wake up damn early for the singnet guy to come... but as again... got bluffed by them..... scheduled at 9am.. they only turn up at 10plus..... but as long as the internet is back, i dun mind ah..... spend my afternoon doing up my routine also... still damn messy... nid to gather some routine and work on it... if nt cannot lah... just find it not flowing.....


Cheryl's class was alittle high today... all bcuz i told her that nid a change of routine..... gt a little sick afterr doing the same routine for a mth plus mah... cant blame..... then she also abit blur blur as well.... but always enjoyed the class no matter wat..... nid something different.....


Got back home and went online... haha.. so long never chat online le... so chat n chat.. haha... had a fruitful chat with sasha... dunoe why we end up talkin abt instructors...... but do finally a difference btw us of hw we define B. as a good instructor... V. funni..... but true ah.... its a subjective thing....

Need to thank sasha and iris for their encouragement over the weekend. I am not giving up ah.. i am always trying my very best...... And glad that all my efforts are paying off....


Mon
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I went to training as usual at HQ..... as usual, i am the 1st to present my routine... diaoz... perhaps i take a longer time, so its always me lah.... good news.. i am able to do my warm-up and pre-stretch correctly.. but just need to watch out for some stuffs.....


Cuming to main routine... B. also uses the same tactic.... had to do it directly after the warm-up and this time round, everything in mirror image, facing them.... ahh.... but gd exposure ah..... urm... 1st block was pretty ok...i assume.. but 2nd block ah.... they say too complex for the routine.. more suitable for class.... not for exam... so then.... claudia did hers..... while i went to change my routine...


In btw, B. gave some advices ah..... then also did the changes for it too..... then nw he knows where r all my errors... haHA... coordination.... and my left right leg.... like shit like tat..... but then i know i am progressing... at least for now, i am getting my cueing and pre-stretch... in fact, i tink my cueing is good ah... in tis standard rite now....


With the pressure that B. is adding to me, its really aids... in fact i really like it... sometimes i wonder, after 3 wks plus of my exams... can i continue the training with them? So that maybe i can improve and further move on? I dunoe...wait till tat time then i know....


I just give up on a $1000 deal to teach at IRAS. Its supposed to be a 2-days event, teaching kickboxing at 7 hrs per day... but after consulting my mentor, B., he said tat i did not have any certification and for the safety of the members, better not loh.... thats why i rejected the offer..... others say me a fool for givin up.. but then i believe once i am certified to teach, there are more chances for me to teach..... woohoo.....

I just ate alot of sinful items... all bcos of the same reason. Ate durians, ate rambutans, ate ice-cream... almost everythin other than chocs...... Why am i stressed up again by AIC??


I hate this kind of feeling..... i really hate it...... i found myself in a damn shit manner.... one thing... why am i adding so much pressure to the rest? Why? Everyone becomes so serious suddenly... everyone is so afraid right now... Is it right for me to do my item in the 1st place? So shitty right now......


Also, i hate to let myself down or let others down...... dunoe lah..... nw i only know my CRT or main routine is like shit... really shit.... everythin nt very right and i keep changin the routine over and over again.. I dont feel assured of my crt routine.....


Jus now went to the arabian night.. at 1st in a cheerful manner... but after askin B. about the routine, i feel so lost again..... perhaps bcuz i dun pick things up as easily as the others.. i dun learn things tat fast ah.. esp. in somethin like this.. i need time to digest... i need time to sort things out..... dun get wat he mean.. dunoe wat he is talkin..... crap lah..... for obvious reason......
i dont want to waste any time of anyone lah......


always on the verge... i dont feel good... seriously i dont...... who can hear me out? U? them? Whoever? I cant not to bother wat others think or say...... bcuz i treasure everythin.... but but but.... i dunoe lah......................


I trying so hard... i really puttin in alot of efforts in this.. but..................


Everythin is there... everythin.... looks like its time for me to shut up again.... bye......

Damn it.... i dun feel good rite now................ Crap.. bloody hell crap...... i have only a few words to say..... I AM STRESSED UP AGAIN.... but I AM DETERMINED..... PROMISED TO MASTER IT within a week.... BY NXT MON i will nid to prove it to u all....


I cant waste ur time...... i cant waste ur energy and effort......
but my mind is confused rite now... super messed up................
xiang ku que bu neng ku, xiang xiao que bu neng xiao......
ci ke de xing qing fei chang xin fu........
wo xi wang ni kai xin
wo xi wang ta kai xin
wo xi wang da jia dou kai xin
xiang xing zhi ji jiu shi chen gong de yi da ban
xie xie

Woohoo, i am back from my demo performance le... tired but yet happy.... elaborate abit bah.....
went to aic course today... talk on emergency stuff.. dunoe wat lah..... but was attentive..... juz listen loh.... then took class foto and went over to suntec for performance le....




1st demo: Des, Weishi and Bong
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Erm, today crowd was slightly better. Around 1240pm, the surrounding was quite crowded, at least nt as scattered as yest. Yest, i was commenting that I can only perform when Bong is around. I do not know whether this statement is valid anot as a team. As i am also performing, i cant make much comment. But if i am not wrong, either the speed is not correct or someone forgets the move. I heard someone talkin from our team, dunoe Bong or Des. But i couldnt hear it properly. If i am not wrong, Des. forgets 1 part of the move. But she has oreadi landed on the ground, then cannot change her move le. Think tat is why Bong cues her. Somehow the flow is there, but kinda a little messy.


2nd demo: Des, Cheryl, Weishi
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This demo comes unexpected. Bcuz of some communication error or human error, someone actually did not remember that she is involved in one of the performances at 1.30pm. It will be too late when she can rush down for the performance, thus changes are made. Last min, the 3 of us were told to do another round of KB. Best thing is we had never done it before. Also, Cheryl jz arrived, abit lost. And she always gets so stressed up when demo is up. Damn funni.... but funni thing is we did pretty well. Haha... and Cheryl did make a comment: Haha, yest. we were sayin that we nid Bong in order to give us assurance. Now, dun tink so ah.. GIRLS' POWER. But i told her: No no no, we still nid him to b around. Haha.. just stand in front of us can oreadi, jus like just now.... cant help luffin... but after the feedback given fro Cheryl's mum, i feel quite happy. As mentioned that only Cheryl and I gt power, Des. seems to weaken. URm, tis feedback isnt that gd to the worn-out ger ah... She has been quite tired recently... haix.... and if such thing goin to happen... i dunoe who can protect her for long.... and luckily she changed her name on the board in there le... phew....


3rd demo: Bong, Cheryl, Weishi
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Somehow i cant deny that i am anticipating towards performin with the two of them. Partly for the reason, one is trained in martial arts and is the head instructor, another one is an experienced performer, esp. in combat/ kickboxing. Their standards are always there. We only did 1 round of rehearsal the other day and now we are up on stage le. Everything went very smooth, other than some minor hiccups when 1 lose abit of balance, another forget abit, another creates own moves, everythin is really damn nice. Esp. when u look at the video, woohoo... the force, the execution, the kicks... tats something that we need to see in doing kickboxing..... At current, its being rated as the best kb performance among all, followed by the one with me, bong and sasha....... But definitely, we still need to work even harder lah...... need to perfect it with no error.....





After performing for 4 days of roadshow, i begin to feel more and more relaxed when i perform. It just comes naturally to me right now. And glad that my aggressiveness and power has improved since my days in tkd. Still got more roadshows to come. Not sure what i will be involved in. Just wait for instructions bah.... But i promise myself that I will never want to disappoint my audience when i am up on stage. Always need to produce an outstandin performance to them. But then no stress no stress on myself.


Tmr, wats my plan. Urm, goin back to HQ for some training workshop which will be beneficial for me. From 1030am till late afternoon. Hope i wun get tired out bah..... kk... cant upload the performance video up ah... but if gt chance, i will show it to u all...

Women's Day Out 2007 Suntec City Roadshow
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WOohoo....... wasnt able to sleep last nite... partly damn nervous for the roadshow performance.. always worried of the outcome bah..... if nt wrong, i am still awake at 2am plus... wth..... end up still got to wake up at 6.40am to prepare for my AIC course.... thanks goodness the modules are pretty simple today.. phew... as usual, class started late and ended early... diao... and even though before hand i told the lecturer that i got to leave early, but then i jz left lah.... best rite....


In any way, the performance for today was a success.... other than some minor logistics hiccups.... stage was placed wrongly.. and no platform.. very hard to attract crowd.... had 2 shows.... 12.45pm with des and sasha for KB and 5.15pm with bong and sasha again for kb... this suntec roadshow basically is just KB for me..... the 12.45pm one was pretty alrite... i suppose.. perhaps new venue.. everyone adapting to the place, music and everythin... pressure and tension up there.. ultimately we fail to present a good one at last show... and for today in front stood the stf members... wth..... power and force was just nt there bah.... but then we still manage to present a good show.. flow is there ah....


stoning and having nothin to do... during the 3-4 hr break, i did a number of things.. had lunch with jenni mummy, talking to bong abt taekwondo, e.g. sharing wats taekwondo- aerobics, flying side kick and etc.... then talked to olessia of which i find it amazed as i never attend her class or chat with her before, helped to distribute flyer... and ended up mistaken as a flyer ger by jasmine... diaoz.....


The 5.15pm show was so so so much better. In fact, it is the best kb performance so far..... did it with bong and sasha... i do not know wat miracle is it... but doing it with bong just give me the sense of assurrance..... i feel so much confident when i am performing with him. I am able to execute my kicks and punches in a more steady manner... We were lookin at the video together after the whole thing. Thanks goodness gt gd feedback fro Bong, Cheryl and my friends.... but definitely we still can improve and work on it.....


Tmr another 2 more shows... new teams for tmr... 12.45pm KB Des, Bong, Weishi.


Followed by 4pm KB Cheryl, Bong, Weishi.


Hope to deliver similar good performance for tmr....
Wish me luck...

For the past few days, I have been talking to alot of people, mainly for advices. Till today, I finally came up with a conclusion bah.


1st Issue
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This issue is in regards to the instructor course that i am undergoing right now. Remembering when i first started taking the course, I did mentioned that I had regretted taking it from the service provider. But thinking now, I think that it is alrite for whoever is doing it. Also at the same time, I do feel pressurized whenever everyone is mentionin the course to me, asking me how am i doing... I do appreciate the concern that others care for me, but it does pressurize me somehow. Perhaps its always the kind of expectations that others want from me or just even that I expect from myself. Everyone knows that no matter what i do, I would want to give in more than 110% of effort.


Even though right now I have not begun as an instructor in A.F., but i would like to thank one person greatly. The reason is pretty much simple. He has been offering his help to me so greatly. Other than helping me in the theory segment, he is currently my self-referred mentor for my practical session too. Last tuesday training in HQ indeed benefits greatly. Today, he sends an sms asking me to join the other instructors for Stfit, HiLo and NB training at every week. Really appreciate it. A very simple explanation. I am not an instructor, and i am not a qualified or neither certified AIC one, but yet i am given this opportunity to participate in such training. Despite some instructors may give that expression that "huh, she hasnt become an instructor, how come she can join in the training?"... At one point, I do feel myself in an awkward position, or will i pull him down into the deep water?... but thinkin once again, as long as we feel what we are doing is right, we should just go ahead. Adding on, another reason of why I am appreciated by his actions is because, I believe he does knows that other than I am going for the AIC course, another ger, XH is taking the exam with me as well. The training sessions are offered to me, but not her. Mayb for the fact that i am helping out in the demo or I do know him better bah. This reason, I dont care much, despite i still tink others may gossip abt. But I know my decision is right.


In life, we are given chances. And good chances may just slip off the hands easily. Now this chance just reached the fingers of mine, definitely i feel that i should grasp on to it. I am willing to sacrifice something, somehow also in my academic by adjusting some modules, but no worries, i will still do well in whatever i do.


Adding on, if i manage to pass my course, I would be required to select a mentor. Previously, I wanted to choose Sharon, as she is one whom i do not know and she got very good experience. Also, i did see the results of her good student, Claudia too. I did not want to select him as his class is known for experts or advanced members. The breakdown is so fast and scary. Also, I din want to choose any of my known instructors as they are all my friends. I am super worried that the friendship will just sour off. But after the tuesday training, I do observe and see something. He is very partial when coming to work related matter. He is 1 character at work and another character off work, or another character when he is on stage. This is something that I require from a mentor., He or she needs to be partial. But now, I am willing to challenge myself. I shall need to overcome the phobia and fear of his class, or in perhaps be the 1st few to challenge. Coming to a conclusion, no matter what, I would be taking him as my mentor.






2nd issue
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In regards to the 2nd issue, definitely it gonna be the performance that i am currently involved. The tension is there, the pressure is there. I know all of us are stressed up in some way or another. But then what can we do? We are oreadi in the pool of water. Its neither deep nor shallow. Tmr is another performance at a new venue, Suntec City. In total, i have 4 shows, 2 on sat, 2 on sun. Frankly speaking, i am scared. But then i know that i need to comfort myself down and relax. Cuz i cant perform when i am tensed up. EVerything will just screwed up.


On the other hand, I am very worried for my team mates, esp. my buddy Sasha. Recently when i see her and Des., i feel both of them are of the same kind. Two zombies in perhaps. Sorry for me to comment that. But neither of them look physically OK to me. Their swollen and puffy eyes, their facial expressions, their speechless look. Everything bah..... I dunoe hw to ask them abt all these, esp. Sasha. But i can only pray hard and hope she is doing real fine. Hope she is not stressed up by the whole demo. Ultimately, we are a team. I do not know hw is the current situation btw she n Him, but then i also dunoe hw to comment. Everyone is tryin their very best. The leader is motivating us with sms-es, his assistant, C. got alot of routines to remember, his kb buddy, des. is worn out, but tryin her best to match the training schedule, and the two new angels of Kb, sasha and me, puttin in alot of efforts in the whole performance. 5 members, 1 heart, 1 move, 1 action.


Pardon me if I maybe too direct in voicing out my opinions about moves during rehearsal. Keep going, Keep trying, have a positive attitude and present a brand new show in each demo performance. Tmr suntec demo, I believe we can do it. Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou.





Sat Suntec City 12.45pm, 5pm Suntec Galleria Foyer.
Sun Suntec City 12.45pm, 4pm Suntec Galleria Foyer.
Performance: Kickboxing
Team name: BCDES

Since the Monday rehearsal, my heart has been thumping real fast. In fact, its faster the days that I cried. Is it the amount of pressure or stress that I had been loading on myself? Or the expectations that others and myself wanted on me? Perhaps every single little part plays a very important.


Frankly speaking, I am afraid. Afraid of failures, afraid of blackout, afraid of almost everything. The tension is up there. Everyone is so stressed up. Its damn obvious on their faces. But I just got to accept it, no matter what. There are people whose faces turn black. There are people who keep practicing. There are people who are panicking and there are people who are crying out there. The amount of efforts put in by these performers outweigh the output. All we wanted is JUST A GOOD PERFORMANCE. Tats the minimum criteria for being up on stage.


Yesterday, I spent my morning in A.F. HQ for some training. Indeed it was very beneficial. All I could say is Thank You to you. You were not paid to teach me. You were not paid to correct my mistakes. You were not paid to help me. But u offered it to me. Deeply appreciated! I like the introduction that you introduce me to J., which really motivates me to work harder.


Thank you to you guys who were singing praises for me. I am working hard, but I need to work even harder to outshine. I am afraid. Wanted to cry, but its enough for the past few days. These few nites just cant sleep, all bcuz my mind is about the performance and AIC. Hugs hugs hugs…. I need all these damn much. CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why do all good things come to an end?
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We have just reached the spot, but yet the thing seems to have slipped off from our hands so easily. Is it a form of regret by taking up the opportunity? Is it a situation that we should never be greedy to accept the chance? Is it a timing for us to reflect on ourselves? What is it?


I hate to lose the feeling of havin a lost fren. Out of sudden, the relationship seems to be driftin apart just bcuz of the performance. We knew that they have their stand. We knew that they have to juggle between friendship and work matters. But coming back to square, it jz feel terrible when one gives u a black face and refuse to tell you where do your mistakes lie in. Argh....


A performance that causes us to put in more than 100% of effort. A performance that makes us to forgone so many other opportunities. A performance that helped me in my AIC. A performance that makes me visualize the fitness industry.


A roadshow that caused me to perspire. A roadshow that caused me to kill so much brain cells. A roadshow that caused me to cry till swollen eyes. A roadshow that caused me to be stressed up. A roadshow that caused me to see the other side of you. A roadshow that caused me to be nervous and worried. A roadshow that caused me to increase my confidence level. A roadshow that caused me to think.


Its a great opportunity. Its indeed a great exposure. I love the experience. I love the fun and laughter that we have. I enjoy the learning experience. I enjoy it. But i hate to have the form of nasty feeling. I hate it! I am so stressed and lost right now... I am dishearted in some how. I lost my sense of direction. Which way should i walk? Which way?


I dunoe is this a joke or wat... but indeed we sound like a fairy tale. Me, S. and D are the 3 little pigs in the story. C. is the stepmother who is trapped in btw us and B. At the same time, B. is the wolf who has 2 forms of character: cunning, sly yet soft. In any time, the wolf B. would prey on us, the 3 little pigs. But where is our hunter? WHere is he available to save us? Just cant figure out lah...... i jz dun like it at all.....





P.S.: This song is just so familiar on that fri evening.... WHY do all good things come to an end? J.T. is the hunter?

WDO' 2007 Raffles Place Roadshow
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For the past 2 weeks, I have been real busying. Attending rehearsals for the WDO’2007. Its indeed a super duber good experience and a good stepping stone to my next path. Really wanted to thank B. they all for giving me or us the chance to perform up on stage. I had once mentioned before that I would like to do so. And my dream has indeed come true. Thank you.



Just ended the 1st roadshow at Raffles Place. 1st day of performance, I had only 1 word to describe. I AM NERVOUS. It has been very long since I performed on stage, so tend to be a little off-form. Kb started off with me, sasha and Bong. WOohoo…. The introduction was powerful. Indeed powerful. Due to the open space, the music was much more slower than what we practice in the studio. This causes us to catch the music in a super weird manner. But things got so much better after Bong gives the cueing. Thank you. Some jokes and laughter in between, but it was quite smooth. A good attempt.



Coming up to cross-training, it was much smooth as compared to kickboxing, in terms of music. But we missed a set of moves, thus we finished 8 counts earlier. WTH…. But then it was good lah…



2nd day of roadshow, was more calm. KB was good, in terms of my individual and overall team’s performance too. Really go all out, bcuz I am not that nervous. But need to work out more on the overall formation. Cheryl commented that I looked damn fierce, trying to kill people. But then we have to look fierce lah…..



Coming to x-training, I was that satisfied with myself…. Partly for 1 reason, elaborate later. We manage to finish it on the dot, with minor flaws in btw. But we do put in our best effort. Happy for it, but angry with myself for another.



After the performance, we were chatting and quite bothered by two issues. One of them is my ankle. During one of the rehearsals, I walked from the system to the stage and tripped. Didn’t know it was a twist, thought minor sprain. Just rubbed…. Then just now demo, after finishing kickboxing, the surge in the ankle was rather painful, but bearing with it lah…. Bcuz demo, din want anyone else to worry. Went up on stage to continue with x-training…. The lunges and the push up extricate it, and wasn’t able to perform in full force for it…. Shitty……



Adding on, in btw of the roadshow, B. expression changed. Rather black. Thought that he wasn’t happy with our performance or so on. Checking with Cheryl, discovered its in regards to the Black world of fitness industry… haix… pressure added on… Wat the hell is x-trainin to them.. dumb-bells, weights, jumps, hops… or wat…. Till now, I am tinking how is our performance? How do we fare and etc? I know we have improved…. But then I need feedback from others… shit… kinda emotional at times…. More roadshows along the way. I know I need to be good…….



Now ankle in bandage….. but it’s a minor twist.. should be fine.. I suppose….. I am sorry to let my darlings who worry for me.. seeing my moody face…. Perhaps I just need more assurance from the “top” level…. *hugs hugs* to myself…. Goin to take a nap now.. wake up later to think of my aic routine for tmr.. shit…too busy till I neglect it….



Will be posting up fotos of the performance soon….