Hey Yo!

my school has just begun with a new special semester. Currently, I am studyin Malay LAM1201. Its quite a cool module though. Partly, i get to learn new stuffs such as grammar, vocab, verbs and etc. Adding on, with the additional help from the rest, i guess i should be able to pass this semester. I hope so.

Anyway, i am still havin my sexy voice. Didnt seem to get any better. The voice juz remains the same. And yest was the most drastic. I had to compete my voice with the renovation voice from Thomson NTUC. BEST!!!

But i am real happy. The number is increasing and for once... woohoo... the thomson KB class actually rise to 20..... slowly building up the number and its never easy to get 20 pple to go for thomson evening classes... glad that it showed... but definitely if the number can maintain or improve on, i would be even more than happy to accept it....

Oh ya... nt to forget that i have a gd wkend over the wk.... spent my time with some friends of mine.. Had a sumptuous dinner in MS. First time trying out the different kinds of food... despite i am sick... and not able to exactly taste the food, but i like the ambience of the area. Pretty cosy and the food is nice, other than the super sweet dessert....

Alrite.... fever for so many days... then cold cough sore throat... all cum in together.... really nid a moment of rest i guess...... but then... *politics matters*....... cant reveal......

JIAYOU BAH!!!!!

Yeah... we r all sick together... bingo...... all started from 1 same person.. i guess so.. and the virus jz spread n spread n spread... and tada... now we r all sick with the same symptoms.......

SIck sick sick.. cant shout.. even talkin into the mic hurts my throat.... struggling so badly in class today... was tryin to talk normally... but because some pple were nt listening... i had to raise my voice... and then my throat is in such deep pain..... haix... crap!!
Anyway... i am pretty much sad..... the term *B*side*.... seems to be getting so detached.... one leaving after next.... haix.... dunoe ah.... feel so lonely at times... hope and wish everyone all the very best i guess.....

Was thinkin of findin replacement for tml evening class... but then... had a promise with the NB ladies in TS>..... i had to be there no matter wat...... haix.... jz pulled myself dere.. lucky nw they know d proper way of carryin dumbbells... tink my life wun b so tough for tml..... tink only ah.....

Life without u gals is so boring!!!!! I will miss u... Wonder how will be the class that i am attending without u being dere..... take care.. hugs....................

Guess too many things have happened recently, till i am in no mood to disuss any particular things.... Haix.....its so saddening lah... but thats life... gotta jz accept......

We cant change some thing... but we gotta work on it......

Thanks for ur sensitiveness...= )

While i managed to brighten the days of others, my mood still remains the same: LOW

Several plans set and planned today.. but because of this and this.. that and that.. it had been cancelled..... SO fuming!! 1st mentioned was training bcuz he was sick... so cancelled... plan2... was to mit up with sasha to go get something... but tada.... somethin cropped up also..... plan cancelled off again......

Then jz went to EP alone... and reachin at 6.35pm... early... and guess what... dun wan to do anythin... no mood le... so i jz sit down.... and watch claudia do her routine.. she looks tired..... poor ger.... i dunoe why... but i am juz not in the mood to do anythin.. nt even to teach class.... jz no mood..... i wasnt even tinkin wat am i goin to teach in less than an hour time..... stone and stone n stone..... perhaps i know the reason why...... SIANZ!!!!!

BUt anyway..... they were more receptive towards me some ways..... it was a good class... to them and to me.... despite the mic played on me again during the 35mins...... i still tried to shout n scream as i could... and funni thing... everyone says i shout very loud....... oops..... at least these pple r able to brighten up my days alittle..... thank you....

Things are no longer the same... Pple are no longer the same..... I dont like to be deceived by others.... and treated like a puppet by others... KNS........ DUN STEP on my tail........ or else... i cant guarantee the consequences.... i'm watchin you!! I'm really am!!!!

I wish all these cum to a full-stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Since i cant brighten up my ow days, I rather make the days of others happier........ SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! = )

In our lives, we change. We change in any area; be it physical or emotional. Recently, I have been thinking for quite alot. Are we really like string puppets with strings attached to us? Are we always being pulled around by others? Are we born to follow others? Do we really have a voice to ourselves?

Some people are quite so fake. I juz cant stand them at times. In front of others, they look like an angel. Yet, once they turn their heads away, their horns begin to show and next, guess what... they begin to reveal the real self of themselves. Basically, its RUBBISH!! You are just a piece of shit right in front of my eyes.

As time flies, I have almost been teaching in AF for about 6mths. Its just so fast. No one can imagine. Currently, i am holding 8 perm classes. Supposingly to reduce to 7, but this figure is going to increase. Tentatively its stated 11 classes. But it should be rising to 12 or 13, still in pending mode. I guessed i am lucky at times, with all the guardian angels around out there for me. I'm enjoying my current life, but i am also accepting another fact. I have to drop the status and the feeling of me being a member attending classes. I have to go into the phase whereby i am only teaching and merely attending classes. Can i bear to do so??? Slowly slowly... i nid time to re-adapt. Bcuz i always luv the feeling of attendin classes with everyone.. This kind of fun, enjoyment and laughter is never the same when u r an instructor.

Lastly, my ahma condition is not on the positive side. THe cancer cells have apparently spread to almost every part of her body and she is in-taking morphine.Adding on, the doc had mentioned that there are additional two tumours found close to her head. Looking at her, the body looks swollen and weak. As predicted, she is left with less than half a year or even lesser than that. I have accepted the fact of birth and death since many years back. Prepared for the worst, as the whole matter involves so many families conflict and backstabbers. Sometimes i juz wish this case would close fast...so that it can ease the minds of everyone... But, its jz dragging....

I am tired...... Looking forward to a brand new day.... = )

Too many things had happened...

My ahma is in A&E.... on tues midnite..
and now she is in A&E again.... crap!!! dunoe ah....

BUsy busy busy....while others are havin their holidays... i am busy covering class.. and sorting my school timetable....

Hope my new schedule will be gd... alot of pending things......

Yest is history, tml is mystery.. and today is gift... thats why its called a present...= )