Been so emo recently, guess all is in due to the cant go swimmin or sun-tanning sydrome. No time or the rain juz spoil everything. CRAP!

Knew i wun be happy if i were to go cover that class. And yah, i am damn right. Dunoe wassup with these pple lah. But heck them. I had oreadi given up hope on them! If they r dere to have fun, sorry that i cant give them. To me, its jz serious workout. At least i gt to brighten the day of the rest of the members.

Back in TS... urm.. my body turned all the way down. Begin to feel drowsy, sleepy, aching muscles, dizzyness... almost everything..... but still gotta pull myself through. Could be my blood pressure was rushed up by those pple. Thankfully those pple were understanding, esp. my kb pple. Thanks babes. Steps was fun other than this high egoistic lady who claims tis and that. I had tried but u......

Collapsed on bus and further on bed later..........

SUN morning was a fun time... Wasnt able to tink of any routine before that..... so was like panicking when i reach TS.. luckily my mind manage to force outside out just before the clock strikes 9.20am. So tada.... send the class round and round.. Goody news is the class shoots to 18 today. In an unexpectedly manner. It finally went back to the old record when i did not find any replacement. If only it could maintain or gets better.....

tried something new with the two crowds. Send them shoutin in pain. Got no idea where i get my power from. But then....... they really perk me up.....

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In some way or another... when you are busy, u would not really think so much.... But once u are alone, everything will start to breeze right in front of you. You begin to think how how how..... all the negative stuffs would flow.... you begin to get so emoooooooooooooo.......

SO fast tml school begins.. I AM NOT PREPARED! ESp. for my thurs mid term test..SHUCKS!!!

Feelin grouchy for the day. Feeling restless as well. Wanna enjoy, wanna go and suntan... but so many things happening... I am bored!!!!

So hard to understand people. Would you agree? Esp. when people are shutting themselves from you. When they dont open up, you never know whats going on.

Hope tml goes smooth. SERIOUSLY!!!!

I juz wanna do things that make me happy. Thats d min. i ask for.

I never expect i would tell her everything. But the discussion just started unknowingly. Its not an awkward discussion. But i should still thank her for the encouragement.

ON my way home yest, i were on the fone with C. As usual, she always shares stories with me about those pple. But in some way or another, i cant be bothered. Not bcuz i am having some attitude problem, it seems more towards i know what is meant by constructive vs. rubbish words. The words might be alittle hurting, but i will jz accept them humbly.

Tis morning, i din anticipate much from the crowd. Deep from my heart, i dun expect the turnout from these pple. TO me, i juz wanna do my best shot. And everythin is either a WoW or a Sink. U make it or u doom it! Started off ok.. but then towards the end, i'm runnin out of stuffs... end up tada......

But my most enjoyable moment would still be the small little outlet. Pple are nice and i enjoy my moment with them. SO glad the attendance is consistent despite its small. My weakness equal the strength of the others, but my strength is definitely an edge over them. So juz push your way through and go all out!!!!!!!!!!

JIayou bah!!!! U will shine!!!

10 essays.... with 2 diagrams each.... all nid to be completed within this fri...... SHucks... Today is oreadi tues............... and i had only completed 2....... will i be able to complete by fri.....

Anyway... today was jz a normal day...... bored/.....

Today I Will Make A Difference

Today I will make a difference.
I will begin by controlling my thoughts.
A person is the product of their thoughts.
I want to be happy and hopeful.
Therefore, I will have thoughts that are happy and hopeful.
I refuse to be victimized by my circumstances.
I will not let petty inconveniences such as stoplights, long lines, and traffic jams be my masters.
I will avoid negativism and gossip.
Optimism will be my companion, and victory will be my hallmark.
Today I will make a difference.
I will be grateful for the twenty-four hours that are before me.
Time is a precious commodity.
I refuse to allow what little time I have to be contaminated by self-pity, anxiety, or boredom.
I will face this day with the joy of a child and the courage of a giant.
I will drink each minute as though it is my last.
When tomorrow comes, today will be gone forever.
While it is here, I will use it for loving and giving.
Today I will make a difference.
I will not let past failures haunt me.
Even though my life is scarred with mistakes,
I refuse to rummage through my trash heap of failures.
I will admit them.
I will correct them.
I will press on.
Victoriously.
No failure is fatal.
It's OK to stumble - I will get up.
It's OK to fail - I will rise again.
Today I will make a difference.

Something meaningful to share with my loved ones....

I guess all of us would luv ourselves more than anyone else would want us to be. Am i correct to say this? I feel so disturbed when people keep asking me am i alright or how am i feeling? 1 time is correct, but if i see them at least once or twice a week and the similar question keeps popping up. I feel its annoying. Makes me so reserved to myself.

Life hasnt been very smooth for me in the 2nd half of the year. Been experiencing more setbacks than surprises. Adding on, things are getting out of the way too. I feel a sense of loneliness and a sense of boredom.

i have made my plans. Will be stayin away for 1 week in december.... will go into a tiny hole...... i am not like them... i cant anyhow take leave as and when as i like...... leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!

i jz want my personal space............................................ cum n go in perhaps..............................

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Oh... almost thought no one is reading my blog. Was quite surprised...
Hi Zhao Yuan...... hehe... been long since i hear from u.... hope yall still doing good...

Oooh..... I jz came back from a dinner with 3 good friends... pple whom u hardly meet up.... but the time is definitely worthwhile.. its jz like a treasure to me... Went to a chinese restaurant in taka to eat... small serving but it does makes u full..... had our usual chat... hehe....nt that bad.....

And for another day... i am not in AMORE>.. neither working nor working out... haHAH..... nid to relax awhile before the WDO is back...... i tink i going bonkers sooner or later....

Btw, i'm lookin forward to teach a corporate class on cuming fri.... ooh.... its a great deal i guess.... hope i am not bluffed..... look forward in any other way..... it shouldnt be that tough......

Lastly.. i am turning into a fat pig soon... My house got 9 boxes of mooncakes.... CRAZY le..... wonder how to finish them....... but then... they are nice.. ,my fav. snowskin and also DA ZHONG GUO..... woohoo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

*SOmetimes i do hope others will try to understand me more..... there are more reasons than normal that i am doing all these.... i cant say and i wun say... bcuz ur lips are not as tight as others.....*

Woohoo!

YEst. alumni gatherin was so-so... Only 2 of my lecturers were present. Mrs Koh and Mr. Yik. Yup, they still remember me. Luckily i am the famous one, not the infamous kind. Had a chat with them and he still can tease me. DIaoz.....

ANyway went to chill out after the session. Guess my mood hadnt been real good recently. Ended up gulpin down the long island in 5mins. I muz be mad. And tada, the effect shown in my tummy. Feel my tummy burnin!!!! and i'm feeling so hot on the rainy nite. But it was damn shiok!!!


SUN
Pretty in good mood today. Finally i am there with the pretty babes in TS. Misses them lots. Surprised them with a new routine & new music too... BUT they were LATE!!!!!! A whole bunch of them!!!

Had lunch with two of them and tada......... i am off to kovan

Attendance is low... They told me tml school reopens... so not much pple show up... HahA.. wat a good reason.......

anyway i spend money AGAIN!!!! haix.. muz try to do something.....

Wonder anyone misses my blog? Urm.. i doubt so............
Firstly, thanks to joc for helpin me in the new layout.... thanks lots..its lovely...

Had been missing myself away from this blog for about 2-3 mths. In fact, it wasnt that long after all. Partly for the fact i had been blogging in malay for my LAM1201. Its a tedious job after all. But thanks goodness, all has come to an end. I had passed and cleared the module. Currently, i am left with 8 modules with 4 to clear in each semester.

Juz to update everyone that i am doing fine. Still busy as usual. Quite a number of things had happened apparently. Should i mentioned specifically? I doubt so.... Perhaps juz a short summary for each.

1) School Life
I am back in school with 4 modules, 3 are level 3 module and 1 level 2 module. A tough semester despite its only 4 modules. Heavy workload. ALot of self-research n readings. ANd plenty of projects. CRAP! But all these will come to an end soon. PLEASE!!!! i cant stand this anymore.

2) AMORE
Ever busy in this area. Regardless classes or so. With acceptance and rejections also. UNavoidable. Roadshows are up, but i am not very involved. I lose alot of friendship upon taking up this job. I lose alot of pple upon embarking on this career. I become more quiet when i am to myself. I am juz different. I cant share with you the reasons, but then i am trying to be myself at least.

Over the two weeks, i think i had a sudden shock in my whole life. Few sentences of words were ringing in my head, causing me to tink and think and think. Making me filled with emotions, making me cracking my brainds and so on. Juz about when the matter was cleared, another shocking matter entered my life. One after another. BUt its all over. Matter closed. We move on................. FULL STOP!

Did alot of soul searching on this fri. After school, i jz hop on a bus and alight anytime. For some reasons, i get so emo that my head is spinning with words, pple and everything. I begin to question myself and soon my eyes are teary. Should i juz give myself a break and runaway? Should i jz hide myself? SOmetimes i wanted to leave silently.... to somewhere else....

I may leave earlier than u expect....
I may trap myself further....
I may jz shut up and move on my life...

i dunoe how long can i endure.. but i am trying my best. Pray for me if you can.
BUAI~~~~~~~~~~~~~~