While searching through yahoo, i bypass a news. Someone was killed by an mrt at clementi station today. Reflecting back, two weeks ago, there was a man who was killed at chinese garden due to family issues. What is the reason for this man to be killed at TODAY?

Is it social issue problem? Should the government step in? I sincerely hope the respective govts would begin looking this matter. Over the years, due to a slight economic boom, prices of goods are rising. Prices of transport had also increased too. The rich may be richer, but the poor may be poorer too. The case of inequality is highlighted in today's society. More help should be given. I had experienced the pain of being penniless before. Thinking of a point of digging your piggy bank and searching for money, it is really tough. So what will happen for these breadwinner who had to support their families. Isnt it even tougher?

MOre pple are ending their lives due to social issues. Haix. I do not know how to continue le...

6 to 7 years, i switched to listen to yes 933... and the first deejays that i know are liyi, mary and lingzhi.. Today 27th october 2006, not only its stephy birthday, it also marks the last day of lingzhi in yes 933.

The news was released to the public on 26th October. I was real shocked and surprised to know that she did not continue her contract with Yes933. Her lips were tight about her future plans.

27th oct btw 7am to 10.05am is a sad day. Or in fact, the whole morning was very bitter. We miss her.Everyone miss her. All the other djs were planning a farwell trailer, jingle and all sorts of surprises for her. Through her voice, we can hear her trying not to cry. But as the time goes, she cant control anymore.

Around 9.53am, her boss enters with a bouquet of flowers. Think she cannot control le and she cried... Some of the djs who were present cried too. As a listener, i also cry. Fancy me sitting in the lecture hall, going to start my geography lecture, my eyes were teary. I cried too. Its a sad moment.

From the time she released the Ying Yue Ri Ji, it was overwhelming. And no one else can compete with her in tat kind of production. Only she had the voice. Only she can touch people's hearts. Only to see her seriousness at work, including suan-ing cruz and making jokes that are not funny.. yet trying to force others to luff with her.. haha.. And i remembered there was once i was so wu liao at 2am.. i called 933... and someone pick up the call.. It was her. I was shocked.. cuz supposingly all djs should have off-work. She was funny at that time, even ask me want present anot.. end up she gave me an eason album by getting my particulars.. haha...

Now she had left 933, we had missed another good dj. This is the first time a female dj is leaving 933, ever since huishi stepped down. I wish her success in her future career and definitely i do hope to hear her back in 933 if possible. Ling zhi jiayou...

In btw, tmr is GCMA 2006. I wish 933 all the best, success in the ceremony and may leehom got his award too... Yes933 rocks....

Erm, here another week had just passed. Let me recall how my beautiful weekend had gone...

Last sat, beautiful amore instructor break the glass and caused a commotion. SUnday i was trying my best to get into study mode. ONly managed to finish my SEA field trip project. Was it good? I dunoe.. And, I was lazing around. I dunoe why...

Mon came. Did i had my english class? I dont think so. Had my econs lecture. Quite a good one, in fact. I was attentive. Erm, though there wasnt any geo tutorial, I had lunch with steph, meifei. A good one really? Went to library for a while to gossip and discuss on our project. Then off to AMore. SO disappointed that JOv is not around. BUt the saddest part was Donald is replaced by this lady called Murina. Erm, at first i find she is OK. But thinkin back her steps, i find it weird. And she screams like a cat or a tiger in btw. SUper annoying... then we went over to woodlands for jenni class. Like it alot for some reasons. And she treated me chicken wing... haha... and tat makes me hard to move during class...

Tues is a public holiday. Woke up late for cheryl nb. oops.... she felt so "glamourous" of her ART sia.. haha... then being "ill-treated" by her too... dunoe hw many sit up ah.... and the toning... then was talkin to des at Bugis Amore.. erm... like to discuss KB things with her.. Just dunoe why. Mayb same interest bah.... Then tats gone another day

Wed, I had my econs tutorial at freaking 8am... i was yawning n yawning.. so tired... then suppose to have 8hrs of lesson, but accompanied steph to see doc.. so shit... the counter pple reminded me as the ger who lost the medicine..... win le sia.... then went home.. had a gd sleep before waking up to finalize my geo project due the next day. Complete it at 3-4am....

Thurs, return back for my makeup sociology lecture... it was great... luff luff luff.. and my slides is 12... lecturer slides is 69... hw best rite...he was asking why is he never learn hw to sing jay song... thus he conclude jay's songs are tuneless... haha.. wth.. and he actually like guo mei mei... and he bought a red sabre... hw childish rite.. but 1st time i know an nus lecturer listens to chinese songs.... then went to PM... as usual i like bong's class.. fun bah.. and finally or 1st time i remember all his moves.. i dunoe why i never get his moves rite.... i always forget 1 block.. haHA... but my chest pain... so didnt go to woodlands le.. home sweet home...

Fri.. which is today.. is steph birthday... hehe.... happy birthday ai ren... spend my day 2 hrs in school.. and the rest in PM and woodlands... erm... fun fun fun.. and had another belly dance class.. haha... surprised to hear i am learning rite.. partly was supporting pple... but also find it interesting ah.. i would continue to attend ah.... nxt entry is a sad one.. check it out...

While reading the story, i feel so touched. By the words, by the lyrics, by Leehom's moves and actions, basically everything. A singer whom I had been idolising over the past 6 -7 years had such a remarkable love story that ought to be shared with all of my friends.

A Person who Speaks through Songs.
Wow Leehom is such an awesome guy. It's amazing how much he has sacrificed for his music. Leehom also wrote the song "Forever Love" for this girl because she is getting married. He said that he had mixed feelings when writing that song because he was sad that she was getting married because that meant she was leaving him forever, but he was also happy for her because he was glad she had finally found her happiness.

A few days before I was on the phone with Leehom, I had actually spared time to go meet his friend from college, Stefan.We talked about many things that happened to Leehom in college. And probably as a result of this homework I was doing, he was able to recall many good memories from college, the more we talked, the happier we became, and I think because of my sincerity and diligence, I had also won his trust.

"Actually, the thing I have most difficulty understanding, is Leehom's love-life. He never seemed willing to speak about it. Is it cause he has been wounded by love before?" I asked very sincerely, hoping that Stefan would be able to help me from this confusion.

"Wounded? I don't think it was like that. You can't ever force love between a couple......, but I know he truly loved that one girl, and was once deeply hurt by her." he thought for a moment, and said, "Out of all the guys I have met, Leehom is the most dedicated[attached] lover, his love, was extremely focused[intense] and loyal." Then he shook his head, "That long distance relationship, went for five years......, they actually really loved each other, but in the end, they still chose to breakup, we all felt what a great pity it was for them......."

"How did they meet each other? I asked."We were classmates in Williams College. In first year, we all chose to study chinese and thus met. Actually she was from the year above us, she was a half asian, half american, but couldn't speak chinese." He smiled slightly, as he recalled.

"From the beginning I could see that Leehom really liked her. She was very beautiful, and was a bit mischievous, and especially liked to tease[play] with Leehom. Afterwards when we knew each other better, she told me that she has no interest in learning chinese, but because Leehom was also studying chinese, she then also became excited at the thought of learning it."

“Last night I watched you sleep as you lay there. I dropped down to my knees and said a prayer. I leaned over softly to kiss your beautiful face. But I could not cross the ocean of your grace.”
"Afterwards......" He smiled again, "Leehom, who wasn't good at expressing himself verbally, decided to write a song for her. Have you heard his song 'Last Night'? Leehom wrote this song for her......", He immediately recited aloud, gently, as though he were reciting a love poem, "Last night I watched you sleep as you lay there. I dropped down to my knees and said a prayer. I leaned over softly to kiss your beautiful face. But I could not cross the ocean of your grace."

"Last Night is also my most favourite song that Leehom has ever composed!" I said excitedly. I shared with him this profound image that would appear in my mind when I first listened to this song: A shy, innocent guy, admiring the girl's face, as she falls asleep under the moonlight, only daring to bend down and gently kiss her forehead, and then kneeling beside her, would express to God the feelings he felt for her - - Only if you have experienced this feeling in real life, can you write such innocent lyrics, where the words will start to speak but hesitate, to you."

"The song must've moved her heart, right?" I said. "They actually already had good feelings for each other, they chose the same classes in the day, at ngiht, they would do homework together, and naturally they became really good friends. Leehom's 'Zai Mei Yi Miao Li, Dou Xiang Jian Dao Ni' and 'As long as I have you' were both written for her!" He suddenly jumped up, "Do you know Leehom's songs well? All his stories about his love and feelings, are actually written into his own songs!"

listened to many of Leehom's song, the emotional and sincere[impassioned] works, but I never knew, that these were actually Leehom's own heartfelt experiences and stories. ]"The summer holidays of Leehom's second year in college, was the first time they'd been seperated, since they started going out. Written in Leehom's 'Dream Again' is the feelings of how much they missed each other as they were separated in two different countries."
“I have not seen my Baby in so long .But I can feel her in this song…”

As he sang, this time, my heart followed with the song's beat, along the memories, as if I had entered the song's time tunnel......" "But real love, should be able to withstand these tests." I said

"Yeh. There wasn't acutally any problem during this time. In the summer holidays of 96', the album Leehom released in Taiwan suddenly made him popular, so the record company decided to make him come back in the winter holidays to promote it, so as to build his popularity. 'Hao Xiang Ni' - He spent that year's thanksgiving in Taiwan recording, and had to spend Christmas and New Year's in Taiwan promoting. So then, Leehom couldn't spend any of that year's summer or winter holidays with her."

"Did she really mind?" I asked."Even though she was not happy inside, each time Leehom came back to school from Taiwan, they'd still make up and be all good again."
"But in the summer holiday's of 97', she had an outburst, because she was going to go on a holiday to celebrate graudation. Her fellow graduating classmates had planned a trip to Europe, and of course, she really wanted Leehom to go with her, and we knew that Leehom also really wanted to go with her too. He tried to ask his record company for a holiday leave, but they wouldn't allow it. Even though we were only third year college students, us group of friends also went along to Europe with the graduating students to have fun, while Leehom stayed in Taiwan, alone, working. We all knew that Leehom really wanted to come with us to Europe, but he was forced to stay in Taiwan, by himself, and work.

I thought of that kind of mood......., and I couldn't not admit that, if I was the record companies boss, I probably wouldn't have permitted the holiday leave application - - Because the production of an album, from producing to promotion, is all in a short period of three months, which is almost not even enough, how could there be the possibility that I would still let the singer take holiday leave?

"During the trip to Europe, you guys must've been so happy." I said, since there's so many beautiful places there."It was really fun! Even though during the trip, there were times where I could feel that she was really unhappy, because she could not accept the fact that Leehom put work in a more important position then her. But when the holiday ended, she still went back to Williams."

"So then she still loves Leehom." I let out a sigh of relief."Yes! Even though she studied business, she still didn't leave to work in the big cities after she graduated, but instead, she chose to stay in the town of Williams to work, so that she could be with Leehom."

"Isn't that very good then?" I continued to ask."It was good and not good in a way. Because once these summer holidays ended, Leehom returned from Taiwan, and went straight to beginning to write and plan his graduation thesis. At that time, we were fourth year college students and had alot of homework. We didn't think it would be any different, but she had already graduated. In the day she'd work, but in the evenings she had nothing to do, and consequently, she certaintly hoped Leehom would accompany her."

"The problem started during this period of time?" I felt a kind of sad apprehension.
"More or less! Each day we'd go back to our dormitories, and we'd all go into Leehom's room, to listen to what kind of new music he had composed during that day. In the beginning we would see her, but time went on, we saw her less and less, and in spring, we heard that she had found a new job in the city and was leaving Williams."

"Leehom must have felt really bad." I said."Actually, at the time, Leehom felt that it would still be good, because he had confidence in this relationship.. he was devoted, one and only, to her. Each day they would speak two, three times on the phone, Leehom had even looked into the long term, and felt that she would have more chances of development/promotion, working in the large companies in the city. She studied business and he didn't want to tie her down in the small town of Williams."

"Feelings from the heart when I had returned from Taiwan to college in 97'.", in this Broadway musical, was a story about a idol singer and his love."Leehom's graduation thesis, musical 'The Bite That Burns' obtained unprecedented success after the final performance, and during the celebration feast, everyone was very excited and really happy. Only Leehom was doleful and dejected......., We knew that he really wanted her to come, so he could share his success and joy, but in the end, she never came......, We all felt broken-hearted for Leehom." "Love problems/ matters..... outsiders can only accompany in sharing the pain, but it is still hard for us to know who/what was right or wrong." I said.

"I know when she was leaving Williams, she once asked Leehom to choose between her or music, Leehom isn't one of those who are dishonest/decietful and speak sweetened words, he said she loved her and music equally, both were long-term and eternal......, he could not choose one, or let go of one." "This fool that cannot speak/express himself properly." I said, grapsing my wrist. At the same time, I thought what Leehom must've felt then, being both a student and singer, he'd have been doing several things at the same time and must've been loaded with work......., many singers decide to give up on their studies, however, Leehom not only finished his formal education, but he also handed over an excellent school report as well. But who would know that behind the scenes, Leehom had made such a big scarifice.

"How did this romance end?" I asked.
"I think at that time, neither of them wanted to give up on their love and relationship. Both seemed like they were trying their best, in 1998, after we graduated, we all moved on, and headed off on our own roads. That summer holiday, Leehom went back to Taiwan to release his album and in September, he went to Boston's Berklee College of Music to continue his studies. Amongst us group of good friends, a few of us had also found jobs in Boston and had moved there, but I went to New York. In 1999, I went to Boston to visit them, and we met up at Leehom's apartment. We unintentionally got to the topic of Leehom's love life - - He didn't say anything, only played the song 'Mary Says' from the files off his computer......."
"How long has it been since I held near? How long will it be till I have you right here? You say that it hurts I can't disagree. But how can I hold on to someone who's leaving me" "How long has it been since I held near? How long will it be till I have you right here? You say that it hurts I can't disagree. But how can I hold on to someone who's leaving me"

"As we listened to the song, we understood his broken, hurt heart, the atmosphere immediately became heavy, we really felt bad for them. But in turn, it was Leehom who then comforted us, saying that he felt she would definitely came back to his side. Even though Leehom knew, that she , who lived in another city, had recently had an eager pursuer after her......."

"When Leehom's elder brother got married, the wedding was held in Michigan, where the bride's family lived. Many friend's from Rochester could not attend the wedding, but still sent generous gifts. In 1999, the Wang family wanted to thank all the friend's great kindness, and decided to hold a reception in Rochester for them, us group of friends also recieved invitations. I rang to tell Leehom that I would be going for sure, I conveniently asked which other schoolmates and friends would be attending. Leehom happily said her name, 'Really?' I was very excited that she'd be coming. 'Of course it's true!' Leehom said enthusiastically. 'She said she already bought the plane ticket, and will tell me her plane arrival time when she knows, and said that I have to go to the airport to meet her.' Leehom very happily told me."

"On the day of the wedding reception, our whole group of friends arrived, and went through the doors to the great hall. We saw a beautiful table that was decorated with many fresh flowers and each guest's 'name card' -- Apart from the guest's name, the 'name card' also had the table number and seat information on it. Us group of friends were specially arranged to sit on the same table. From when the wedding reception began, till the end when guests departed, there had been an empty spot on our table......., this was her spot, she never appeared. During the reception, Leehom was busy helping his parents, big brother and sister-in-law taking care of the guests, but I noticed his gaze when he frequently glanced at the great halls doors. Even though a few days before the reception, she had suddenly 'disappeared', she couldn't be contacted by phone or email, Leehom still really hoped that she'd suddenly appear and give him a big surprise! But in the end, Leehom was to be disappointed."

"After dinner finished, some guests began dancing enthusiastically, I unintentionally walked pass the 'name card' table. There was only one lonely name card left on the table amongst the beautiful flower bunch-- it was her name. Leehom stood beside the table, staring pensively at it, completely oblivious to my existence next to him." " 'Something must have suddenly came up, that's why she couldn't come.' I could only comfort Leehom this way. I then lightly patted his shoulder, and couldn't think of anything else to say. 'I also thought that. ' Leehom said feebly, as he took up the 'name card' and placed it in the pocket of his suit. At this moment, I could feel his weakness......"

"He is a really attached lover." I said.

"Yes! He was so attached that he still hugged onto that hopefulness that she would come back to his side, even though he knew she had already accepted love from someone else." He agreed to my sighs, and said: "In his 2000 album, once I heard the song 'Gao Shu Wo Ni Hai Ai Shei', I realised that there was no way their love could be saved....... But what made me really feel bad was another song on the same album 'Yong Yuan De Di Yi Tian' -- He still dreamt of that moment, of going to the airport and meeting her, and how that day would be forever's first day......."

I listened to his discription, and couldn't say anthing, there was something in my heart intertwining...... The story seemed to have ended, but what about the feelings of missing a person? Those feelings had only continued to grow.....

"In 2001's 'Wei Yi', after awakening that morning and then taking a stroll on the sandy beach, 'Has a star changed its heart, the desires from before have all been abandoned. Recently, I've been finding it hard to breathe, I even want to avoid my own shadows. Baby, you are my only one, both worlds have changed heart, going back is easier said then done' It is like Leehom was writing about his footprints that were left on the sandy beach, still keeping in his life, the fond memories and not letting go, to the point he was not able to get over his emotions in his desolation......"He sighed and said.

"I know Leehom never blamed her, during many incidents, he was actually very protective, always considerate of her feelings. He believed that he did not spend enough time with her, but he could make up for this, as long as he showed he truly loved her and was sincere, then she would definietly be touched. He believed that long relationships, are shared/enjoyed by the mind through giving your heart out, truly. Only too bad it didn't happen this time......we also felt regret for them, because she actually still loved him, but she just couldn't accept a boyfriend that would often not be by her side, and from this, I understood, in Leehom's heart, the feelings of 'Liang Ge Ren Bu Deng Yu Wo Men'." He said.

I extremely liked that song, "In the empty room there is no sound of replies, but your fingerprints are in my memory. Me and you, two people don't equal us......", the first time I listened to it, my heart felt so wretched I cried.

"'After all it was only too short a love, finally we both returned to being strangers'" --After I heard this song, I finally knew that Leehom had let go of this love......, turning into a kind of tranquility and quiescence, becoming this song with an experience, to be shared and listened by all. " He said

"In this song, we can also hear our own stories." I said, it really was so touching.
Trying/practice and creating, will always be a composer's reason and product, and what is reason itself, what is the product itself? Destiny frequently works in contrary to what is expected, apart from smiling, we should learn to accept-- If we were always given the right to choose, then why would we have needed to pray for a perfect result.

Destiny will always create some things that are very difficult for us to go back to again.The significance in these songs are sublimated at this time, not soley is it to touch the listener, but even more precious is the Leehom after so many years-- a person used to speaking through songs, certaintly also uses songs to listen and hear......, this worthwhile and precious love, is in fact, not the composer's reason or product, but is the sincere proof. And we are willing to follow and take it out again, to carefully reminisce.

In fact, each song has its own elements of both happiness and blessings.

Story adapted from OurHomeSG discussion board. Special Thanks!

I know i need to blog this before i could go to sleep.. i jz dun want to forget any of these unforgettable memories.. Anyway I went to leehom concert jz nw... in a few hours ago... and 1 word to describe: Marvellous, fantastic, great...

His concert rocks...

The concert begins at 8.30pm... opening show is gai shi ying xiong.. he was out with two lions... and spectacular opening... then sang a few more songs.... had different themes for each section... e.g. hip hop, chinese version, opera version.. and many many others.. and he makes jokes in btw... better than 4 yrs ago.. and everyone was singing with him.. it seem to be a singing session... people were standing up... everyone was jz enjoying themselves.. it was really fun.. and enjoyable..

other than the part on no photograph taking.. argh.. so irritating.. nvm...

But i jz need to tell u all again... leehom rocks... his best concert ever that i had gone to... and forget to tell it.. its full house at his concert jz nw.... unbelievable concert....

Went to see doc today.. awarded 5 days of MC.. actually its supposed to be used as an excuse letter for amore.. but then but then... she jz issue me the 5 days.. i doubt i get to use it real wisely.. cuz in uni, u cant afford to miss any single class... haix...

so no matter how hard u cough, no matter hw much u sneeze, you have to drag yourself to school, no matter what..

And to tell u peeps something, i accidentally throw away or misplace my medicine yest after visitin the doc.. nw i goin back there to get a new set... i dunoe what will the doc say... presribe me with a blurness medicine? Keep u updated then..

Btw no fried food, no cold drinks, no spicy, no orange and many others... aww... this haze is killing me no matter what.. I need to recover fast.. cuz sat is LEEHOM concert.. alan kuo you lun is the guest... ahem... look forward to see it man....

Seriously i cant imagine i am lockin myself in the room on a saturday afternoon workin on a sociology paper... erm... anyway its an impt assignment.. and i hadnt write a single word.. since 12pm.. and now is 5pm le... best rite.. was badly doin research...

While doin the research, tempted to blog... cuz i thought of something... yest. went home with cheryl and cindy... while walkin off from amore, we were talkin about studies.. and i said something.. "I am never good in studies". Directly the other two reacted promptly.. What.. u r nt good in studies, still can go uni.. then us leh... siao liao... Erm... key point is i am really not good in academic... most of my close friends know.. so definitely entering uni is a big hurdle... was struggling on language and academic terms...

While others spend 2 hrs to finish an essay, i may need to take 4 to 6 hours to do so.. with exact piece of work... Its real slow.. but it just cant be helped... Everyday so pressurized... Everyday feel like giving up, but we know WE CANT! Fight fight fight!!! Fight till the end. 3 years will pass very fast!!!

Why am i stilll sick? Why had i yet to recover... sian....so many projects, assignments and tests.... kill me bah.!!!!

Womens Day Out held on 7th October 2006. Was excited over this event as the 3 of us... linda, clarissa and i went to search for outfits and prepare for this event.. went there early.... erm... was still fine.. though my body is still alittle off.. will get worse when haze comes...

anyway the event is a 3hrs aerobics marathon.. got cardio latino, kickboxing and high-low aerobics.. fun and interesting.. at 1st was aimin for the prize.. then... gt influenced by few factors.. stupid haze.. my nose is super sensitive to me.. makes me breathing problem... then gt some stupid pple.. who cant move.. jz plant themselves there... end up i no mood to continue.. jz anyhw do le... and my body was nt physically well too... so i cant blame much... haha.. i din win any cash ah...

But something happy was.. the 3 of us won the best outfit.... haha.. the best buddy... so happy ah... hehe... no cash.. but got 1 month free unlimited at amore.. and also a free massage... and many other freebies... quite alot of things i got ah..
here are some photos of the event... ahh.. can comment anythin... other than how i look... thanks.. haha..


Theme of the event: Make it a girls' thing


Me, Linda and Clarissa...
Btw, clarissa is ntu tkd president.. dun play play...
And Linda is 1st runner up for the event... also dun play play.. happy for her to win..


Our designed tees


We rock it!


My favourite amore instructor.. most ah lian de.. cheryl

October 6th is a very important day to me and my friend. Cuz its her birthday.. Happy birthday to u.. though i know u r nt reading my blog.... Anyway i didnt get any mood to do my essay due tmr, thus i think blogging may bring in some mood for me..

October 7th is drawing so near... Sat.. Womens' Day Out. I'm really looking to this event. Think the people surrounding me know about it too.. I am participating in the event organized by Amore, a 3 hr aerobics marathon. 50mins cardio latino, 10mins break, 50 mins kickboxing, 10mins break, 50 mins high-low and end of it. I'm going for endurance. Right on top, I'm getting outfit for this event. You must be imaging FOR WAT... think i need to dress appropriately to have the mood to keep myself going.. yeah.. tats it...

Hopefully i win ah.. haha.. gt money de leh.... and also packages to be won... i hope i hope.. will be going down there with a few frenz.. hopefully we win...

Oh yah.. for this event, abit of torturing myself... bread is my good fren at now.. lolx... but i am still munching chocolates and other junk food in btw... e.g. i ate a chocolate waffle today...a BIG SIN.... need to have a better figure.. a more toned up one.. jiayou weishi.. chiong chiong chiong...