Yah... i am back.. another 5hrs of class teachin on a sat.... damn tired and shagged.. seriously... never felt this before.. jz feel like collapsin on my bed.....

Morning...in PM.. replacing bong's class. Guess its a good opportunity that i would grasp. At least i am able to try out on the fast paced class, where it is the style of turns and so on. Started off NB. Rather a serious class today. The usual regulars were nt present. I mean the front 2 rows people. Come a group of pple that i din usually see. BUt one of the china lady was present. And some others that i know. And iris too. Thanks for the presence, feedback and etc. Thank you.

Coming to 1030am which is a class that i am lookin more toward... saw a familiar face. Carine was here. Didnt really anticipate anyone of bong's members to turn up though, bcuz i know if bong is nt teaching and if they knew it, they will not show up. But she showed up, and i am jz caught by surprise. Thanks! Some other members were here too. Nt sure whether were they aware that bong was nt teachin or wat. Started off the class.. alrite i guess.... managed to "warm up" the members abit.... keep them movin on. And members begin to smile and relax, before pre-stretch... partly i forget one part ah.. oops.... and one thing warmed my heart also the smile tat cum fro carine's face. Can see that she is smiling, enjoying.. and also making some "noises" to liven the class up, together with vanessa. Thank you.....

Had did almost what i have planned for the class.. in fact i add in additional one more block.... i am pretty much satisfied with myself bah. Cuz of the turns and spins and moves and etc. At least i try... at least i do.. at least i know..... thanks for the chance, opportunity and everythin.. and definItely the feedback cumin fro members at the end of the class...

" I enjoyed the class juz nw" "Thanks for the great workout!" "Your instructions are clear" "You showed much more confidence than last time".....

guess all these encouragement are impt for pple like me... so that i can keep on moving.. didnt manage to catch up with carine... but would be glad to hear some feedback fro her on a face to face manner... ultimately they have been doin aerobics for so many yrs and such feedback are essential....

Back in thomson... i am abit drained off.. i dunoe why... i know i wasnt to myself... abit lost... but i jz pull myself on... i have to endure..... and finally lasted the 3 hr... freakin long......... damn tiring... kill me.. nxt wk another one...... DUnoe hw to comment lah.... but then i have tried...

Finally once again.... i jz wanna say thank you thank you and thank you to each and every single one of you. ...

Most impt... u are happy.. i am happy.. which is the most impt factor... Thanks!

Have a great wkend ahead... i have to finish rushin a project in 2 nite of 2500 words.. wish me luck......ciaozzz

What am i feeling? How am i feeling? I gotta say i am not doing good..... perhaps stressed... perhaps overworked... perhaps this.. perhaps that lah.... i got no idea..... or i am jz tinkin too much AGAIN!!!

1) I dont wanna go home
With an additional person in my family, i feel a level of constraint, restriction and many other types of problems. She hinders my activities. She is looking at every individual member with another eye at times. She is gossiping us to other people. And we are giving more than 110% of our time to her. But, now... if i can, i choose to return home late so that i can face her lesser. Some how some of the other family members also. It is such a saddening case. Do u understand?

2) Everyone is not there
Feeling lonely and sianz. EVeryone is not there. For the very first time, my thursday is so different without all of them. No you, no you, no you........ where r u? I only have him, but not for entertainment. For towards like talkin work related stuffs. As usual. Draggy, pulling myself.... only time i enjoy is the final thursday CB or bugis class that i have just now.... I jz felt so emotional just now... Juz wanna enjoy myself to the last beat of the music. Perhaps i wont get to see the BJ pple any time again le. Kinda missed them becuz the class was the place which groomed me up as an instructor in perhaps. The place where i took my first warm-up and get the "hang" out of the whole instructor life. Now having to give up, I am feeling reluctant. But life had to move on. ANd so do I.


SOmetimes something are better to left unsaid... ......... .................... .......................

Missing everyone's presence. missing you abit here and dere. Missing the fun, joy and laughters that we used to have. BUt no matter what happen, the earth is still turnin round and round, and life gotta move on. ....

Woohoo.. i guess i am a happy and a tired ger jz for today.. sat.... ended the day by doin 5.5hrs of classes.. i can never imagine... and tml i gonna endure for another 2.5hr... my throat is almost killing me... but i still gt to pull on.... yeah......

went over to woodlands to cover the class... KB.. started off abit weirdly.. everyone is like not with me.. cant bring them "high high".. its juz so different as the classes that i took in EP. But gladly, after the warm up or close towards the end of class... i manage to bring them up to the peak. They were like gaspin and panting for breath. And gd thing is they were able to catch the move despite abit lost. Thats something that i am happy for myself, i guess. ABT was even more happening. I dunoe why i ended up talkin lame jokes with them. Abt easter day, chocs, holidays, achievement and anythin that comes to my mind. Diaoz... Lastly, HILO... urm... i wun say its a bad class. But bcuz wl is an outlet that dun like turning.. end up cant do much. But then, gt quite a number of positive feedbacks from the members. As usual, there will b pple askin me where am i teachin. And etc.. And as usual, i say pls pen them down and submit to the mgt. They will review and see hw things go. I cant control though... And create another amazing record. KB 48 pple! Woohoo!!!

Back to thomson, i guess other than my own 320T class, i wasnt as happy as for the other two classes. Urm, it is jz so different i suppose when i cover pple classes. Its always of the extreme ends. How receptive are they towards you. Some pple come in thought it was him, but it wasnt. They are not willing to give u a chance. They glue their eyes to you. They dun smile and respond to you. They attitude you. They stand there nt moving. They are juz xxx. In my mind, i know wat i can do. Chop chop finish chop chop go.

But yet on the other hand, there are some who thought it was HIM, but found out was me, still give me the chance by attendin. Thanks to such pple. Gladly, they enjoy the class and came forward to tell me their comments. Its a pleasure for me to cover and take them, and definItely letting them to know me too.

Lastly, two good impt news, i guess.... as usual, it gotta do with classes. Firstly, i would be helping xxx to cover the class on xxx dates. Perhaps i din expect that lah, thats why i am happy over it. Cuz i guess it jz never cross the mind of us that this will happen. But thank you lah. Bcuz seriously since the attachment period, i miss takin the class in these areas. And got a call from xxx. Different person though. PErhaps this is a gd or sad news. I dunoe. I would be attendin the last class on upcumin wk. Cuz i would be embarkin into a new journey. I tink what i want had cum true. Finally. Thanks to him! Had wished to have another class in another outlet. And finally here it goes. I am glad, happy, overjoyed. Everything bah! Gotta treasure it lots.

Gotta be real busy... i guess so..... for the nxt few wks... rushin projects projects and projects... killing me softly.... and also then exams.... tis is so shitty.... everything all in at one go........... PLS PLS PLS.....

GO GO GO!!!!!!!

Alright, it seems that it had been quite a few days since i last blogged. Really trying hard to recall what has been going on over the wk.. becuz i jz i feel i had been zonked out, fused out, or whatever out. I had turning into a zombie sooner or later.

Helped jade to cover her tues morning class. Apparently, her class is indeed different from the rest when i replace for her. I dunoe hw to explain the feeling, but her members are abit funni in the sense. But generally its quite alrite. And guess what, eventually i came back home and rot. IN fact, if i did not remember wrongly, i had a nap. Supposingly to finish up my assignment and etc, i ended up sleepin jz to rest my body. Feel that i nid it badly. So tada... i am lying on my bed til 4-5pm... which draws me to the time to head for EP. HahA, bcuz of someone, ended up that i had not taken the CB class. Let him take ah, since he enjoy taking the class so much... Oops... then i can jolly well do my stuffs also... He tried implementing some moves for the KB. Good application i would say so, so that i can review on my techniques. Everything seems so different....

Wednesday... this is juz a different wed... i dun like loh... frankly speaking..... bcuz there is no training in the morning.. which means i can sleep late again.... then goin to school is true for tutorial.. ended up doin a solo presentation as my partner was late... and goin for an hr lecture instead of 2... rushin down to science park.. alightin at the wrong bus stop... and eventually meeting up this group of ladies who is not takin the class seriously by chatting among one another in their bloody hell own language.. being late.. and etc... i cant imagine they would jz walk in and out of the studio as and when they like.... also, they are jz throwin their hands in both kb and nb....... abit hell..... but then i jz teach and head home straight... HOW I WISH I WERE IN PM AT 7.30PM..... at least i get to enjoy wat i like to do other than handling the bunch of bitchy ladies.. and not to forget to mention... the staff who are not friendly where i have to make my way to the studio.. find the switch.. do the set up.. and no mic...... hell hell hell......

Thurs.... apparently its always meant to be my favourite day.. but it also didnt go smoothly as planned..... supposingly to reach school early or on time.. guess wat.. i ended up waiting close to 35mins for the bus... and guess wat.. it was packed and i cant hop on and gt to wait for the nxt one.. yet on the opposite lane, 6 buses return back to the terminal with 3 at the same timing, 2 at the other timing and 1 on the other..... and i ended up reachin school 20mins later.... and tis is not the end yet..... i went to the wrong lecture hall...... diao.. but ended up chatting with a guy fro my tutorial group... he was like disturbin and askin me whether was i bored.. as i am drawing pictures on my lecture notes as usual.......

Head to PM... supposingly to meet debbie.. but then... due to some unforeseen circumstances.... will only be mitin her after she returns...... ahh...... hope she enjoys herself.. hehe..... classes.. 3.30pm.... nt bad lah.. at least he is back to his old self... nt doin some weirdo things..... kb... slightly different.. but i was gaspin for air.... blockage on my throat...... then didnt want to do much.. so anyhow wack le........ perhaps i am sianz lah... u know u know..... people get bored also..... and had dinner.... chat... before goin over to bugis.... to attend bong or in fact is sasha's class...... Yeah! finally i gt to attend this ger's class after so long....... tis time round she is more relaxed as compared to the previous. Thats a gd news... if based on beginners is oreadi a gd thing as it is not easy to handle members, ESPECIALLY his members..... they could be demanding ah.... so dun take it too hard on urself.. jz enjoy and luff ur way through.....

Lastly, fri...... spend my time restin in fact.. had lunch with claudia.. unplanned one.... chatted with her.. exchange routine.... i tink i can never do her routine.. but she is ever creative unlike me ah...... mine is pretty much the standard one..... i knew it for myself... but then.... its jz such a form.... i am who i am lah.....

lastly, a good news.... i finally tame myself at 12.20am by sitting in front of this laptop typing my report for changing landscape project.... woohoo.................... and i got the introduction out.... finally.. left another part before i submit to my partner... hahA.. he called me when i am sleepin.. and i am so blur and lost...... until he cannot stand it.. and tell me to get back to him when i wake up... i feel so bad loh... so tada.........................

Tml and Sunday a long long day... guess wat.......
SAT: 9.30am KB WL, 10.30am ABT WL, 11am HILO WL, 2.30pm 320T, 3.30pm KB, 4.30pm KS (almost all are xiong classes)
SUN (9.30am HILO, 2pm KB, 3pm ABT) phew....

and nxt wk is the same thing.......

Cross fingers that i would survive wor....................................... hahA... iron-woman cuming....... jiayou jiayou jiayou for all....

semester cumin to an end.. i might be takin MALAY during the special semester.... hahA... mayb i ended up marryin a malay guy... lol... kiddin ah........

HAd insonmia last nite once again.. i am still awake at 3plus... and i am supposed to wake up at 7am... shucks.. tis is so terrible..... then i was struggling so badly..... in keepin myself awake..... then went over to bishan... urm... morning class was fun of the day... partly.. its the sunday class ah.... and nancy they all were dere too.. with the screams and shout... a fun day to go....

then watch step up2.... nt bad lah... i wun say its a gd show... cuz the only part i enjoy is the last 10mins... when they tell everyone what is street dance all about... WE NID TO LET EVERYONE KNOW the presence of us. All of us come together, regardless where we come from.. but all with a common goal.. and they were finally being accepted by everyone... its quite touching...

back to PM...... LO..... not bad lah... i wun say its a drastic one... but it wasnt a bad one too.. get to do wat i want to do.. din have time and dun really want to do baby mambo..... dunoe why... sianz...mayb....no kick or feeling.......

then nb...... i am abit unhappy lah...... but cut all the crap... dun wan elaborate.... but the members r nt bad...... and gd thing... my shoulders are better.. can rotate back le.....

haix.... i dun understand some stuffs.....selfishness.. isolation... ego...... emotions... and everythin about human...... Are human really that ruthless? Are human emotion-less? Are human tat bad? I wish i am those who is come and go come and go........................................

N I C E ????








IS IT NECESSARY???

The pain didnt subside away... Still in pain.. though its better than yest.... but haix.... out of no where... why would i have injured my arm? Why why why? I dunoe i dunoe i dunoe...... argh... crap lah!!!!

Anyway.... nt much to update bah...... fri classes.. instead of havin van in my class.. it was debbie.. its jz so different in some way...but i am glad she is havin fun though... had a gd chat with her.. its been like so long... and generally nt bad despite a drama happened unexpectedly.... a lady actually tripped on herself while doing pony back... and she fell to the floor... generally i can see her in great pain.. and everyone did stop immediateLy... jz to see... but the class had to get goin... so press bell.. called mse.. and so on... really scarly lah.... and the class was in a state of shock.. nt so much laughter... but thankfully... it managed to get better after the second half.... such issue jz happen unexpectedly..... hope i did manage the situation well......

Saturday... bcuz of the pain in the shoulder.. didnt go for BB.... erm.... he did back the same routine..... its a challenging.. mind conscious routine..... most of the members were spendin time tryin to recall and memorize the moves... end up the atmosphere was pretty tense.. which is similar to tues and thurs case..... urm......

He looks tired n worn out.. or emo..... i dunoe....

went over to PS and makan with debbie and we chatted once again.... yup... and gt a call.... and so on.. before i head off to thomson to teach the back2back three classes..... I GONNA DO THIS FOR 1MTH>>>... FREAKIN LONG>>>>> bUT i tink i can sustain....

320 was a good session today. How do i define it? I saw the sense of satisfaction and accomplishment in taking the class in perhaps. Seeing the members able to do the steps, seeing the members able to catch up and follow.. and most impt, seeing the members able to learn things at the end of the class really brightens me up..... and i jz have my ways in teachin 320, which is very different from the rest... I GUESS.. esp. in kicks... only the class knows.....

KB... some of rasol's members were present... but nt a stress factor for me...... nt bad.... tiring session.... and they do shout for me.... tats something gd.... and nxt wk nid to add in something more intense... i guess so..... cuz they could be pushed a level higher as compared to the monday crowd.......

KS.... i almost went blank during the class... tink shortage of sugar... so i got the class to do from the top.. before i went to drink lots of water... and change off sculpting to all static... bcuz i feel i am not doin good le... thankfully all things go welll.... and stay back awhile and teach someone hw to do easy walk turn.... its jz like tat ah....

Lastly, thanks catherine... for the 2 choc muffins... they r nice.... urm.. given by a member fro thomson.. quite shocked when she passed the box to me jz before we begin KB..... sweet of her... thanks.. perhaps i din anticipate bah...... but it jz happen......

before finishin off this entry..... i been tinkin somethin after the chat with her yest.... urm.... replication.... is it true that we have alot of you inside A. now?? Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Somehow i feel its a bad thing in somehow.. bcuz u r no longer unique and solo. Last time, in perhaps pple or others knoW u r unique as u r different from the rest. But with more pple who are like you, it makes them so similar even though it may not be exactly the same.... People have more options and choices too.... And as you move up a level, will everyone be able to follow? I DUNOE....

Abit in doubt.. abit in suspense. I am findin myself right now. I still wish that my hope will b valid in the nxt round. I dun want to be trapped in the same venue. I DUN WANT!!! = (
May i recover fast.

IF only i can capture myself and cum and go jz like you....... IF ONLY!!!

Yeah... its a thursday..... ever a memorable day i guess.... past two days had been rather a zombie or lazy day for weishi... she jz din want to move her body.. lazy like a pig.....

Btw, i am in a happy mode right now. Reviewin back what happened over the two days.

Took a corporate class at THE TREASURY. Woohoo.. its fun and enjoyable. The pple r nice too. Yeah.... and there were guys. Not bad, at first they were not able to follow. But subsequent, they were able to... Cool... We ended the day taking photos as well... Fun experience ya..... and bcuz of such, I am caught in the rain repeatedly. So crappy right. And my ipod drops on the floor during the rain too... CRAP! Rushed back for KB.... and then nt bad, but tues routine was better..... and this this that that.....

THURSDAy... Went to school with my eyes haf closed...... pretty tired..... also dunoe why.... been havin insonmia recently... haix.... then went over to PM... urm.... something happened...... haix.... nt much to say.... then wanted to modify new routine... and use studio.. who kNows.. someone came so early to PM... and decided to let him use the studio privately. Dun like to share it with someone else when we are usin two different genres... he doin HIP HOP and i doin aerobics... WTH!! so ya..... thats it man... but i managed to sneak in eventually...... and use for 15mins.... nid to settle some moves.....

KS.... urm..... this wk routine..... its jz different from what he usually did. Nt his usual self. Guess he is too tired le. Can see from the movements. KB.... slightly modified fro yest... nt a drastic change. But due to the rain, i jz cant execute out properly.... and so i jz did the class with minimum force.... only till the last track.... HOWEVER!!!! I FOUND 2 BLUE BLACK ON MY KNEES.... should be due to the last track...... i hit my knee so hard.. till i saw two big thing.... AH!!!! This is the 1st time i saw the blue black... diaoz.....

Then replaced Fiona or in fact is claudia class... KS.... its been a long time since i replaced HILO at other branches.... others are LO or in fact are off-peak crowd...... suzanne attended my class... i tink i am far too happy till i forget she is in the class... i jz ended up luffin and smiling.. perhaps also for the fact that everyone answer me back when i seek a reply.. Thanks to all.... includin vanessa....... hahA....

ended my day.. havin dinner with baby vanessa in sakae... lolx...... i am apologetic that my voice is always that HIGH pitch.. i cant go as LOW as ur mojie sharon lah...... if nt i dunoe wat am i talking... wahAHHAHA... will be a laughin stock by then.. whahAHa... a very filling dinner and i enjoy it greatly... thanks yA....

Alrite.. thats about all... Upcoming two wks.... alot of things to settle....

3 projects undone.. routines to tink of... and endless sleep to catch.... i am off.. gd Nitex....

I guess all of us hold a monday blue-ly day... Didnt wanted to wake myself up from bed today. Partly for the fact i slept at 4am last nitE>.. sorting out my music.... reformat my itunes, ipod.. almost everythin... all thanKs to the new hard disk that i have jz purchased...

But i still dragged myself off to class.... it juz dont appear good to me if i go for the training and not the class. Perhaps its jz one of my own principle. Wth hell rite.. Weird lame principle. Or could tis be a form of gratitude? Goin for classes in return for trainin? I guess so.... How would i have explained the class? In short, i feel it could be better. Perhaps we r all tired. Tend to forget routine, do the same thing... and etc.... We could be lazy at times. ...oops... hw i wish i could jz laze around, doing nothing... no nid to tink this and that....

COntinued on with the training.... focus wasnt on me for today... but then i feel today i am doin good in some way or another. ABle to do what i cant do during last week. But nid to be faster and agile. Too fat to move maybe.. or jz too lazy lah....

Wanted to attend donald kb... but the blue-ly day is stoppin me from doin so. Jz wanna laze around... and leave for thomson earlier.. and thats hw we went... donald tried to stop me and ask why din i join in.. he brought handmitts into the class.... perhaps nxt wk bah.... then see hw... cuz i dunoe hw far can my legs carry me to........

Thomson classes.... perfect 10 bah...... as in attendance for both. Perhaps for the rain.. or i dunoe.. but then CB... tried the new move... erh.. nt bad... i still tryin to improve in the softening.... really tryin. but my stiffy body seems to b movin on a different direction from me.. But jz gotta move on on n on bah...... gt distracted by a lady who stand in the centre on class.. directly behind me.. totally lost in the whole class.. tinkin when one cant follow when i did haf time for step touch... hw r they goin to follow durin the rest of the class... so basically..i dunoe wat they r tinkin... hope she is fine bah......

Heard some gd stuffs from members today...... Yeah.. tink i nid all these small little notes to sparkle and brighten me.. and peek me up...... At least i knOw i am progressin.... i can feel and sense it.. some way or another... in fact, i guess i ought to thank donald for lettin me to cover the classes while he is away. Bcuz i feel i have learnt much more when i am conductin the class now... Much better than last time.. but could be better...

Wasnt as emo as last fri.. haHa... guess we have all grown up..... time to move on and proceed.... hahA.. thankfully someone din sob today... or else i dunoe hw to handle again.. buy her a pail... in perhaps.. lol..... anyway....Wun get to do a "show-time" tml.... cant pple be more decisive in their decisions at times..... but then i got my plans...... few more wks then.... hopefully by then........

Alrite.... life gotta move on.. and so do u and i....... so lets not think but move on!!!!!

Why am i bloggin at 1.30am when i have an early class at thomson tml morning? I got no idea basically.
This wk... have been rather peaceful and quiet. Perhaps no training and everyone is busy. Wed and thurs are slightly different as compared to previous wks or so. Determination does plays an important factor when cumin to classes. U know, i know..... u cant afford to challenge us.... or else u will find silence in the class.... hahA...... its jz so funny and weird basically.....

Messed up abit thurs Ep class in the evening kb... hahA.... i dunoe why also.... suppose to do this.. then end up... somethin jz nt right... but thankfully class was patient with me.... and smile back to me ah..... and managed to close all the 3 wks of thur in EP happily...... in fact, i kinda missed the class... perhaps i really enjoyed myself alot.... yEAh!!!

fri was more or less an emo day for me..... i know i wasnt to myself... esp. in class... try the new cd.... one word WEIRD to describe.... tink i wun b usin that cd for these few wks... or mths... till i work out somethin on it.... argh!!!...... crap man!!! she's leavin.. she found a new full-time job. IN some way, i am happy for her.. yet on the other hand, i feel weird without her beside me during class... contradicting right. But thats hw life is... it is never fair though...... wish her all the best bah....

sat... which jz ended less than an hr ago..... had been rather great...... started the day at PM.... my muscles are achin.. yet i still drag myself dere... i also gt no idea... perhaps i jz nid to pull myself up.. some way or another.... then as usual lah..... then CB... ahem..... today dunoe is i am givin attitude or wat... i jz wanna stand behinD...... and be in my own world... hahA..... jz do my own things... thanKfully no newcomer.. so class was rather fun..... even though i am behind....

And then... nothin much.. had my lunch and went over to thomson for class..... 2 new faces..... didnt stay long.. cuz goin over to suntec IT SHOW to look for my ex manager n stuff.... goin to spend 700 in less than 12hrs time... on a camera and an external hard disk...... and nxt mth.. another 700 gone for my special semester module.... such a big hole in my pocket......

COming to an conclusion....... i knOw i am tinkin..... tinkin of wat.. i dunoe... but i am thankful for myself in havin a busy lifestyle.... till i knOw i am useful as a form of resources.

It's SHOW TIME!!!!! I gotta show....!!!!

1.41am.. gd Nite....

I feel like a corpse, since monday nite or in fact is tuesday morning....

Had a gd day on monday in fact.... cuz remember after attitude-ing someone over the wk.. jz make me dun feel like taking the monday 3.30pm KB... and i jz wanna withstore my energy till evenin before i blast it all out...... tats why i din lah.....

then tues morning gt test... then in fact i really only study on monday nite.. past few days quite emo... dun feel like muggin.... in fact was whinin to someone.... haix... then sleep for abt 4hr...... so went to school in a zombie face..... haix.....

then dily daly.... and then finish paper... i feel i can do the paper... i dunoe why..... seems quite alrite for me... perhaps its human geo bah....... then went to PM put bag and stuff.. small details nt to mention.... major things are....... i am so tired that i almost feel asleep inside studio.... but i kNow i had collapsed down.... jz dfeel damn tired n off basically......

then wed..... urm....... school and kb basically...... tats it.... gd session...... thats wat i can conclude..... thank you.....

What am i really thinking? I really got not much idea.

Perhaps over the wk, i am fumed with flames over someone's actions. Somehow i feel like i am juz like a lost bird in perhaps. Yes, from one surface you are real good, helping and assisting. Yet on the other hand, i feel a sense of ignorance from you. Or in fact, it has become a form of ignorance from me? What do you determine the word of responsbility? Being responsive for what you are doing? Acknowledging the work of others? How would you determine?

I am somehow caught in the state of loss. In fact, its also more towards stress as well. The tension is really UP for me. I guess so, cuz its visibly seen by the amount of chocolates that i have been indulgin over the few days. A big bar a day. It gonna kill me sooner or later. Juz like yest, while tryin to catch some sleep, i begin to ponder. Is it necessary for you to be creative in terms of routine in order for pple to acknowledge and respect you and luv your class?

I admit and conclude that i am one who arent creative bah. My routine more or less is based on hard work and try an error. From small bit to here n dere and i figure things out on my own. How do you define what is called a creative routine? I dont know. You say its complicated but no explanation said. But thanks for the feedback. While seeing how others go, i knoW i am really different from them. In many ways, but 1 thing for sure i know I AM NOT GIVIN UP ON MYSELF.

I were sharing with Vanessa about me teachin 3 days of HILO in 4 days at the same venue. How would others see me? Most of them might be different members, but there are some who are same too. I make my best effort by changin abit here n there of my routine jz to ensure i dun get bored out of it. I also tried changing it every single wk. But what are all these for? Myself? The members? Or who??? I dunoe..... but then i am still trying and trying....

Everytime i make up my decision, something jz hit me and stop my path. Went to thomson today in a down mood after all the thinking... but the sunday class is alive once again. They really know hw to brighten me up and cheer me up. Really gotta thank them. I guess so.

Would you rather want your routine to be simple, ur members smiling and able to do it easily? Or would you prefer your routine to be complicated, but can follow, yet with a bit of difficulty?
Or would you prefer your routine to be creative, yet only a minority of the members can follow and do well?
Where would you want to place yourself to be? Are you asking these questions to urself? Its not easy to create a routine that is simple, creative, yet it also adds in elements of complications and members can do well. Seeing the members smile, seeing the members shout and scream and communicate with you during the class is really a different experience. But how can u really get to do this? How?

School school school... wat the hell is school....... another 15mths of endurance.. another 15 months of pondering... another 15 mths of waiting...... i hope my patience can last me till now...... my mind is mixed up......

i dun feel like goin anywhere..... i jz wanna be to myself.. and be quiet bah..... i hate the feeling of such once again........subdue me if u can....................................

I WANNA BE ALIVE ONCE AGAIN!!! HABEN TINK OF NEW ROUTINE AND MOVES>>>>> DAMN SIANZ>>> SHIT.... TMR HOW???