For the past week... i wasnt happy... definitely not within my relationship... is abt the attachment that i had with my mentor... i am not angry with him.... but in fact.... i am very glad and happy that i have him as my mentor..... he is really v. patient with me... in fact, tis is the very 1st time i see him so patient... he din scold me..he din say me.. and he really guided me patiently..... thank you so much to him.......

Wed nite... i cried for the 1st time.... after i failed in my own expectations.. and his too... he din reprimand me... but did tell me which are the areas that i gone wrong... being a sensitive man.... he knows that i am not happy.. and told me to cheer up.. jz b4 he get off the train..... but then... i cried ah... on the train after that... and was told to do it for the 2nd time the nxt day after.....

Thurs..... was in school 1st...... then strugglin to smile in fact.... didnt mean to.. but then i nid to put on a brave front and avoid others from worrying fro me..... but once i got into PM Amore.... i cried under the thick towel..... and i shocked Van....... bcuz she sensed i am nt ok while she is havin CL inside.. and came out to see me...... i jz dun feel gd... i am worried and scared... so i cry again...... diao.. and dragged her to go makan with me.. we had a feast..... and i mean it... curry noodles.... 2 cold tofu... green milk tea.... red bean glutinous rice... siew mai... did i miss out anything.. then... went back to studio to practise... halfway through i am jz fed up with myself... for serious.. really fed up..... bcuz i jz cant get wat i want or wat he wants from me... idiot.. CRAP!... and then took the class again...... and damn it... things jz dun go wat i want.... but the patient mentor jz brought me to the side.. and taught me again... tis time round he tells me those things that he wants individually and taught me hw to say... appreciate it alot..... but he wanted me to do it again at the evening class....

Went over to bugis.. wanted to go and have a walk alone on my own.... but then i din want to worry the others....so i jz went with them... only had a drink and try to practise.. but then i jz couldnt get wat he want.... 3mins before class begins.. i told him that i give up... say i am not prepared.... and i dun wan waste time.... so i dun wan... and lucky i tell him tat....

but then... i cry again when i gt back.. so diao... jz damn disappointed with my ownself ah.... cuz i din expect things will turn out like tis... such a simple n easy thing.. yet i did like hell..... then ended up.... i am damn down.... in the nite i scared alot of pple.. esp. debbie n iris... they were v. worried for me.... super.... i am sorry for that.... i begin to lose my confidence.. lost my stand.....

fri.. went school.. super low mood.... then finally gt to mit Van.. who is there to cheer me up again.. thanks to her so much.. again i dragged her to eat..... diao hor... went kenny rogers... she really brighten me up..... and we eat green tea ice-cream... drink milk tea... and wat huh.. dunoe... but she really brightens me up alot.. and gave me the assurance....... and i went back in a better mode....

Sat... the day came.. i seem to drag myself to go workout... bcuz i am worried that i cant mit his requirements again.. almost cried when i reach... someone or i mean a member shelter me over.. cuz drizzling.. had a short session with her... and she is encouraging.. thank you....then din want to talk to anyone.. cuz i jz dun have the mood.... then time to take the cool-down session.....

started off super tensed up... he commented that he cant hear wat i am talkin.. say i am blabbering through again... but the main routine.. went pretty smooth.. jz that for the fact.. i shouldnt hold the members for too long bah.. today was much better than the previous few.....

IN conclusion.... i am really glad that i had made myself... bong.... the members and my loved ones to smile and enjoy the session with me... thank you v. much..... u had been my rainbow... which brightens me up... the songs are picked to depict my emotions.. and hope u all know what i am tryin to convey.... i am not push-up ger... but then.... i know we nid that too.....

and last but not the v. least... I HAD PASSED MY AEROBICS INSTRUCTOR COURSE OFFICIALLY!!! Thank you................... i luv myself and everyone and my boy too.... hehe....

and back to it... more challenges are up.....
1) Upcoming thurs cooldown.... i am supposed to talk but not do......
2) A full-class session to take... my ideal dream...
3) Amore new outlet... Thomson plaza..... roadshow on 4, 11, 18th nov..... involved in KB performances......

WHY DO you passed me??? the answer will b revealed on upcoming thursday as said by him... so check it out... woohoo......