For the past few days, I have been talking to alot of people, mainly for advices. Till today, I finally came up with a conclusion bah.


1st Issue
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This issue is in regards to the instructor course that i am undergoing right now. Remembering when i first started taking the course, I did mentioned that I had regretted taking it from the service provider. But thinking now, I think that it is alrite for whoever is doing it. Also at the same time, I do feel pressurized whenever everyone is mentionin the course to me, asking me how am i doing... I do appreciate the concern that others care for me, but it does pressurize me somehow. Perhaps its always the kind of expectations that others want from me or just even that I expect from myself. Everyone knows that no matter what i do, I would want to give in more than 110% of effort.


Even though right now I have not begun as an instructor in A.F., but i would like to thank one person greatly. The reason is pretty much simple. He has been offering his help to me so greatly. Other than helping me in the theory segment, he is currently my self-referred mentor for my practical session too. Last tuesday training in HQ indeed benefits greatly. Today, he sends an sms asking me to join the other instructors for Stfit, HiLo and NB training at every week. Really appreciate it. A very simple explanation. I am not an instructor, and i am not a qualified or neither certified AIC one, but yet i am given this opportunity to participate in such training. Despite some instructors may give that expression that "huh, she hasnt become an instructor, how come she can join in the training?"... At one point, I do feel myself in an awkward position, or will i pull him down into the deep water?... but thinkin once again, as long as we feel what we are doing is right, we should just go ahead. Adding on, another reason of why I am appreciated by his actions is because, I believe he does knows that other than I am going for the AIC course, another ger, XH is taking the exam with me as well. The training sessions are offered to me, but not her. Mayb for the fact that i am helping out in the demo or I do know him better bah. This reason, I dont care much, despite i still tink others may gossip abt. But I know my decision is right.


In life, we are given chances. And good chances may just slip off the hands easily. Now this chance just reached the fingers of mine, definitely i feel that i should grasp on to it. I am willing to sacrifice something, somehow also in my academic by adjusting some modules, but no worries, i will still do well in whatever i do.


Adding on, if i manage to pass my course, I would be required to select a mentor. Previously, I wanted to choose Sharon, as she is one whom i do not know and she got very good experience. Also, i did see the results of her good student, Claudia too. I did not want to select him as his class is known for experts or advanced members. The breakdown is so fast and scary. Also, I din want to choose any of my known instructors as they are all my friends. I am super worried that the friendship will just sour off. But after the tuesday training, I do observe and see something. He is very partial when coming to work related matter. He is 1 character at work and another character off work, or another character when he is on stage. This is something that I require from a mentor., He or she needs to be partial. But now, I am willing to challenge myself. I shall need to overcome the phobia and fear of his class, or in perhaps be the 1st few to challenge. Coming to a conclusion, no matter what, I would be taking him as my mentor.






2nd issue
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In regards to the 2nd issue, definitely it gonna be the performance that i am currently involved. The tension is there, the pressure is there. I know all of us are stressed up in some way or another. But then what can we do? We are oreadi in the pool of water. Its neither deep nor shallow. Tmr is another performance at a new venue, Suntec City. In total, i have 4 shows, 2 on sat, 2 on sun. Frankly speaking, i am scared. But then i know that i need to comfort myself down and relax. Cuz i cant perform when i am tensed up. EVerything will just screwed up.


On the other hand, I am very worried for my team mates, esp. my buddy Sasha. Recently when i see her and Des., i feel both of them are of the same kind. Two zombies in perhaps. Sorry for me to comment that. But neither of them look physically OK to me. Their swollen and puffy eyes, their facial expressions, their speechless look. Everything bah..... I dunoe hw to ask them abt all these, esp. Sasha. But i can only pray hard and hope she is doing real fine. Hope she is not stressed up by the whole demo. Ultimately, we are a team. I do not know hw is the current situation btw she n Him, but then i also dunoe hw to comment. Everyone is tryin their very best. The leader is motivating us with sms-es, his assistant, C. got alot of routines to remember, his kb buddy, des. is worn out, but tryin her best to match the training schedule, and the two new angels of Kb, sasha and me, puttin in alot of efforts in the whole performance. 5 members, 1 heart, 1 move, 1 action.


Pardon me if I maybe too direct in voicing out my opinions about moves during rehearsal. Keep going, Keep trying, have a positive attitude and present a brand new show in each demo performance. Tmr suntec demo, I believe we can do it. Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou.





Sat Suntec City 12.45pm, 5pm Suntec Galleria Foyer.
Sun Suntec City 12.45pm, 4pm Suntec Galleria Foyer.
Performance: Kickboxing
Team name: BCDES