Character changing?
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Ever wonder that the character of a person does shape the social circle of an individual? Had been pondering over this issue recently? WHy is it that some pple who have a wide circle of friends yet still lonely? Why does some pple have only a few friends, yet she feels surrounded? Which is better? To have more friends or to be buddies? Almost all, i came up with a conclusion...
Ultimately its still better to have buddies than to have friends. In our life, we could know as many pple as we could.. But able to reach out to friends when they are in need, it only applies to buddies. They would be the first to lend their helping hands to you. They were the one who would be concerned about you. I am thankful that in my life, I had alot of buddies from different areas. Huimin, my always best left-handed buddy. Feifei, from tkd, my sun-tan partner too... Sasha and Rachel, from amore, always there to support me and cheer me up..... Without them around, my life would not be that exciting..... Urm... why am i sayin all these?

Anyway i din have a gd sleep last nite.. always gt kicked by my sis in the middle of the nite.. snatch blanket from me... by the way, we combined 2 super-single bed to a queen-sized one... and early morning.. made so much noises to irritate me.... lecture pretty fine.. jz dun feel like talkin.. dun ask me why.. cuz i also dunoe the reason. Going to NUS irkes me. I dun seem to find someone who i can confide too. Everyone appears more like a stranger or someone who meets more to an eye. They are just so different, including myself. MEt up with feifei, the 21st birthday ger.. haha.. take photo in campus under a tree.. and also juan, my tkd ever best training partner.....

off to woodlands... ahem.. went library... borrowed a couple of anatomy books to read up... gonna do well for the upcoming BEC course... alot of pple know i am takin it... alittle pressure on in fact. I am tryin my best and i know there are pple out there to assist as well.... today is the 1st time i purposely go, just bcos of Jet. Seriously! In the past, i never like his class. But he really changed under my image. Today he really slowed down the pace, juz bcos of the beginners in class for steps. but after half hour, he still paced up. repeatedly sayin its SB and not SW.. haha.... and i am happy too.. cuz i manage to do his steps with minimum difficulties. But sometimes i turn till i forget the steps. Damn funni loh. And i tink if u interact more, pple help u too. For example, one of the regulars of Jet came forward and taught me a couple of the advanced movements. Haha, and i manage to do it after the break. So happy loh.....

And then jenni mummy came... hehe.. today i like her pilates.. haha.. perhaps also on myself, i really endure and give my best shot. I jz like pilates.. i dunoe why.. real shiok..... and we went for dinner after class, together with Jet.... chat alot of things, quite a number of corporate issues... cant reveal much in here ah.. sensitive issue... i jz can say i really pity them ah...... and someone gotta receive "something" from me, within these 2 wks .. most likely on tis sat.... its time that i need to stand out and say something..... *argh*.... you juz frustrate me in some way man....

Its true that we can force things to happen
Its true that we can accumulate strength and fight for things that we want
Its true that you style is bad
Its true that u need to move on and listen to others
Its true that you gotta treat them better
Its true that you cannot make it
Its true that you need to upgrade

Its false that they are slacking
Its false that they are not good
Its false that they are not tryin their best
Its false that they are demanding
Its false that they are not improving

In fact, you are the one who has the most problem. You are the creator of problems. Why pple go, all bcos of u. Why pple complain, all bcos of u. Why pple compare, all bcos of u. Bcos of u, So many irreasonable changes. Bcos of u, so many ill-treated and demandin requests. Bcos of u, i really dont like you. Bcos of u, i cant stay on. All bcos of u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!