dearest diary,

i dun feel good recently...seriously i dun feel good.. each day going to school equal a day of torture...each day returning back home equal sadness. I cant take it anymore, seriously. Been goin to skool carryin a fake face, goin here n there, smiling..tryin to make pple smile n luff....but that isnt the true self of me..i seriously want to cry it out... but i had to be strong...i had to hold n fight back my tears.... everyone is pressing me so hard...so hard till i cant breathe...

i am sorri to say e next few things..but i realli need to let someone know... currently i am tryin to stay far away fro two people..both r gers actually n i am rather or veri close to them..but i am avoiding them...cos the amount of pressure that they r giving me is killing me....both r rushin so hard....everyday been sayin the same thing to me all over again.....wo zhen de zhen de heng pa...ni zhi dao ma...wo shi ren..ni shi ren..dan shi wo shi yi ge bu tong de ren...wo bei ni men ya de heng jing....ni men ran wo jue de ni heng pa ren, rang wo que de wo bi qu yuan li ni, bi qu bu yao geng ni men suo hua...sui ran ni men ren shi wo bu shi yi duan heng chang de shi jian, bu liao jie wo, wo bu guai ni men....dan wo hai pa de shi wo, wo shen qi de shi hou, wo hui shi gu du de, wo hui xuan zhe bu geng ni men suo hua...ni men ye qian wan bu yao lai geng wo suo hua...ying wei...wo bu yao fa pi qi. zai wo suo you de peng you dang zhong wo chong lai mei you zai ren he ren de lian suo guo, ma guo da...suo yi ni re huo le wo....ni sui hao shi xiao shi....wo xiang ku...wo zhen de xiang ku........