In our lives, we change. We change in any area; be it physical or emotional. Recently, I have been thinking for quite alot. Are we really like string puppets with strings attached to us? Are we always being pulled around by others? Are we born to follow others? Do we really have a voice to ourselves?

Some people are quite so fake. I juz cant stand them at times. In front of others, they look like an angel. Yet, once they turn their heads away, their horns begin to show and next, guess what... they begin to reveal the real self of themselves. Basically, its RUBBISH!! You are just a piece of shit right in front of my eyes.

As time flies, I have almost been teaching in AF for about 6mths. Its just so fast. No one can imagine. Currently, i am holding 8 perm classes. Supposingly to reduce to 7, but this figure is going to increase. Tentatively its stated 11 classes. But it should be rising to 12 or 13, still in pending mode. I guessed i am lucky at times, with all the guardian angels around out there for me. I'm enjoying my current life, but i am also accepting another fact. I have to drop the status and the feeling of me being a member attending classes. I have to go into the phase whereby i am only teaching and merely attending classes. Can i bear to do so??? Slowly slowly... i nid time to re-adapt. Bcuz i always luv the feeling of attendin classes with everyone.. This kind of fun, enjoyment and laughter is never the same when u r an instructor.

Lastly, my ahma condition is not on the positive side. THe cancer cells have apparently spread to almost every part of her body and she is in-taking morphine.Adding on, the doc had mentioned that there are additional two tumours found close to her head. Looking at her, the body looks swollen and weak. As predicted, she is left with less than half a year or even lesser than that. I have accepted the fact of birth and death since many years back. Prepared for the worst, as the whole matter involves so many families conflict and backstabbers. Sometimes i juz wish this case would close fast...so that it can ease the minds of everyone... But, its jz dragging....

I am tired...... Looking forward to a brand new day.... = )