Wednesday, January 23, 2008
I seem to be tellin alot of pple of the same issue.. and they are XXX pple... i guess so.... am glad that everyone is out there to listen to me... suggestions do help... but limitations are there too..... ever ranked KB as my top fav... but yet i am at nowhere when cumin to teach... yet the most un-confident NB... yet turns out to be my favourite and best class so far.... Wats cumin up all by... i dunoe..... they are new.. and i am new too.. all of us grow together... i hope time is sufficient for me... i hope so... i am pretty worried in some case or another.......
Who is out there to listen to me..... 2 pple ask me to ask him this qn.. but i am stoppin myself.. bcuz of limitations...... i cant disclose over here... but i Know i am tryin my very best... i dun wish to tell anyone..... its only for u to find out and for you to kNow.....
When pple drift.. it could be due to alot of reasons... i chose nt to reply to her sms last NIte... nt bcuz i agree that i had walked out of her... in fact i din... i jz wanted to give both of us some space in perhaps... she hadnt been havin time to herself.... she has been scarificing so much on others... tis shouldnt be this in fact... we live to be happy.... we live to luv ourselves too..... we dun live bcuz of others...... even though there could be a strong attachment....
I ever told u before... if one day anythin had happened and i left... the only reason could be bcuz of cheryl... but tis time is nt her..... in fact, to me its for ur own gd... its for urself..... try picturin urself in the scenario of havin time to urself alone...... and stop tinkin of weird issues...... and havin the word "trust" does not mean that we have to disclose all issues..... if we hadnt trust one another, we wouldnt have talked to one another too.... and i wouldnt have told u so many things too......
I know i am still concerned for u... but yet i Know i cant be with u 24hrs everyday..... due to all reasons includin school and amore...... sometimes we have to learn to solve things on our own.. as individuals and nt rely on others....... we can care n be concerned.... but back to square.. the problem is still urs... either u solve or smash it....... u r the decider..... like u Know... some issues are still in my mind...... and its only me myself and i who can help myself... no matter hw many pple i am talkin to... no matter who i talk to.. back to square its still ME ME n ME>.... no one else...
I dunoe whether u will be seein tis or understand what am i sayin anot.... hopefully u would not get the wrong meaning....... currently, i dun wish to do all these... but i am down with all these options... i am sorry if i am doin tis...... but then.. i jz wish u r happy in doin ur own things.......
We want you to be happy as urself..... remember wat i say " U ARE WHO U R"... so BE URSELF>>>>
I miss your beautiful smile ... 11:46 PM