I just ate alot of sinful items... all bcos of the same reason. Ate durians, ate rambutans, ate ice-cream... almost everythin other than chocs...... Why am i stressed up again by AIC??


I hate this kind of feeling..... i really hate it...... i found myself in a damn shit manner.... one thing... why am i adding so much pressure to the rest? Why? Everyone becomes so serious suddenly... everyone is so afraid right now... Is it right for me to do my item in the 1st place? So shitty right now......


Also, i hate to let myself down or let others down...... dunoe lah..... nw i only know my CRT or main routine is like shit... really shit.... everythin nt very right and i keep changin the routine over and over again.. I dont feel assured of my crt routine.....


Jus now went to the arabian night.. at 1st in a cheerful manner... but after askin B. about the routine, i feel so lost again..... perhaps bcuz i dun pick things up as easily as the others.. i dun learn things tat fast ah.. esp. in somethin like this.. i need time to digest... i need time to sort things out..... dun get wat he mean.. dunoe wat he is talkin..... crap lah..... for obvious reason......
i dont want to waste any time of anyone lah......


always on the verge... i dont feel good... seriously i dont...... who can hear me out? U? them? Whoever? I cant not to bother wat others think or say...... bcuz i treasure everythin.... but but but.... i dunoe lah......................


I trying so hard... i really puttin in alot of efforts in this.. but..................


Everythin is there... everythin.... looks like its time for me to shut up again.... bye......