Secrets.... To tell or not to tell.... Its real hard in keepin secrets.... or the issue is not about secrets... its just some issue that it does involves some people and does not involve the rest... yet we find it so hard to talk to the others... fearin that we may spoil the overall relationship... if we tell, it may spoil.. if we dun tell... it may also spoil.. so to tell or not to tell.... i gt no idea... stupidity plays such a big factor....

Does it feel good when you are mistaken as an instructor even when you have yet to become? Within this 1 mth, got mistaken for quite a couple of times... even when i am at other areas.... someone claims that i am fit... another one really took me as an instructor.... and set higher standard on me... diaoz.... mr. J...... i will remember u de ah.... u r good... likes to disturb members.. and mistaken me due to C., and now lucky best.. use mic to say...... but then i feel its ok to me....

Had a good chat with someone today.... seems to let me know alot..... but yet today i feel that i am not to myself..... always seem to feel so lonely..... i hate this kind of feeling... its jz so shitty..... worryin for 1 person now too... D... an instructor... back home something happen.. and i know he is damn sad... i hope he is getting back in good shape.. i hope he is fine..... shower him with all the blessings.... it jz takes alot of time to heal this wound.. but i know he can do it.. How i wish i could give him a good pat on the shoulder....

I have made a pact with someone... gotta keep to it.... will there be a blossom or will there be a wither of flower? Is it time for me to enter into another relationship? I dunoe.... It had been so so long since i got into a new "life"....... i dunoe.... mayb i am tinkin too much also...