Such a black wednesday
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Suai... type one entry.. whole entry deleted.. retyping now.... Blacky wednesday.. wat the heck... nothing seems to be on the right track ever since then.... what am i tinking of... craps.. shit.. and nothing... i feeling so dumb rite now...

1st news came by is my test... stupid english test... why can i fail it.... i dunoe... 15/40... tis is madness u know.... i hate to fail things... i hate to do things that make me go down the drain... uni studies..... i dunoe.... alot of pple blame me on amore.. but tats nt the reason though... i dun wan comment on this....

pulled a damn black face to amore jz now.... jz in no mood to smile ah..... but ah... got irritated somehow also... dun wan comment on it.... went to wack on myself.. took a much heavier dumb-bell jz now..... jz angry of somehow.... its real hard to fake a smile when u r nt to urself...

everythin goes well for Des's NB.... i tink she can sense that i am nt very alrite at today... stretchfit sia.... also din go very rite... argh... positioning and stability... almost killed myself for such... today's his pace was better... was it due to the comment given to cheryl by me? i dunoe... more movements involved ah.... then still can ask steady steady anot... give him back a evil smile...=_=....

However i like his KB routine at today.... tiring.. nt really.. but challenging... did back wat donald did previously... but in a better pacing in perhaps..... somehow makes pple turn here and there... the routine goes, jab up, jab down, jab up, jab down, front double jab cross, back double jab cross, then add additional moves....

now seems that instructors nt goin to back kick le... all going to do new stunts again... must watch out for it...
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Thoughts of the day:
When it is time to free a person, we just have to let go our hands. Its hard to control one's emotion. Parting is sad and cruel. As tears roll down the cheeks, I sob silently. I wish the day never comes. I wish its ever-lastin. I fear for the day that "the particular sentence is revealed to me". I wish i am not present when u said that. I am lost in some way. Seek me back. I need to return back to the normal path.